new journal coming soon.. .whole new person too... stay tuned!

someone asked me a question and i didn't know how to respond to them... they asked ( Read more... )

too much on my mind right now. i don't know where to start: oh wait, the stories are repeating themselves, it's sort of like reliving the end of 9th grade.... & of course something's happening which i'm scared so i think im gonna stop talking to him, which is really stupid cause i can't keep running away

Even with your little defects, i still find you perfect. [it's too bad i don't know who this pertains to... i'm too confused about everything & everyone] if i could only find a sign to help me decipher my feelings... I'm really sorry if i have hurt you along the process - i wish i knew what i wanted ( Read more... )

I don't know why i'm scared, but everytime someone tries to get close I push myself away. I guess I pretty much got this from all the times that people would push me away - in a way it's like getting revenge.. but it's happening on some people who don't really deserve it. I don't know why but i just think that if I get too close something will ( Read more... )

*Warning*
Do not read this if you will judge me based on what I write. Feel free to comment.

Some journal entries will be from previous posts in my other blogs..

[24 Mar 2004|08:07pm ( Read more... )

it's so true that you never appreciate what you have until you no longer have it... i mean... at times i believe to dislike my family so much - they always give me the same ol' crap about doing things for the best & that someday i'm gonna thank them... i mean... i wish i could appreciate them for everything they've ever done for me.. i do ( Read more... )

It's happening again for perhaps the 3rd or 4th time.. i just lost count... it's the same shit everytime & it makes me happy for a millisecond... I decide that I will finally shut him out of of my life and persuade myself into not giving into any temptations... well what happens??? of course he enters again and acts as if everything were all right ( Read more... )

- Don't know what it is that i'm about to do, but I know that i have to do it... It's been hiding inside of me and i just want to let it out ( Read more... )