the year has been one of my craziest yet. the ups took me to my most staggering heights, and the downs weighted me 6 feet under. i'm not sure how i feel about all of it yet. was it good or bad? was it limbo? should i be happy its over or should i miss the youth that each year leaves me a little more detached from? i think its a little black and ( Read more... )

i miss the way pain feels when your numb ( Read more... )

wow! atlantic city AND vegas?! within a mere few months of eachother?! i'm either incredibly lucky or incredibly unlucky depending on how much losing occurs. i knew i'd be going to vegas in january (even tho my bdays November) for my 21st birthday, but now i hear i'll be going to atlantic city sometime around june or may for my aunts bachlorette ( Read more... )

and by 11:30, she was done.

let the trees bloom in the spring. let the wind wave their leaves goodbye. I'm impatient for a fall, where the trees flame and their ashes scatter the pavement. let an arctic winter numb their remains as frost bitten limbs become phantoms as amputees. let them rise from the ashes.

' SLEEP TO DREAM ( Read more... )

when i said that thinking makes me nauseous. . .what i meant to say was drinking makes me nauseous. i gotta lay off the bottle for awhile, last night was just way too much. god only knows how i got home cause i sure dont.

You forgot what I once meant to you.

uh... thinking makes me nauseous.

its amazing how one person can leave you totally affected. leave you with a new profound perspective on things. alter previous notions of life and loneliness. make you doubt the very world as you see it. i'm sure the same could be said about a book or a song, and i would probably agree if either were that powerfully persuasive and well worded. but ( Read more... )