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Well.. it is a sad day today.. my grandmothers brother has died today from lung cancer. :( very sad.. um i was hoping it to be a good day today.. but that makes me sad,, i didnt know the man very well though. but my poor step father. his dad is going to be next :\. Welll.. i dont know waht to write.. oh well. i hate my icon. I think i will change ( Read more... )

Well.. It has been awhile.. And you know me.. i usually always write in here. Damn.. Its summer annnnd it sucks ass.. I think.. that my eye is swollen..fuck. Well night.. or Mornin.

You know those times in your life, the ones you seem to forget. You know, when you were in 8th grade and thought yourself a big shot and in truth you were a loser. Yeah you know. Well.. I was one to be in a horrible mood all the time and want to attack myself and beat my head in until i couldnt recognize my reflection in a mirror. I always left ( Read more... )

It has been a long time since I have updated. It's late on a Wednesday night and here I am sad. LOL. When am I not sad. It's the damn loneliness. I thought I was geting somewhere with a guy I have a crush on, he has a girlfriend.. but I realized last night that he won't break up with his girlfriend. Even though he flirts with me. Even though he ( Read more... )

I think.. that music is a way to heal your soul. I have been listening to so much music lately that I feel naked with out it. But I like to listen to music that makes me feel good. That fills me with a sense of excitement... but it's more than that. It's.. obviously hard to explain. Music should make you smile.. or at least feel something. If it ( Read more... )

I am leaving another entry, and this one will be about my ex and good friend who i dearly miss, Josh. I don't know why it's hitting me so hard again, but alas it is doing just that. It could be because I am on the rag, but it's different this time. He would have been going to school as a freshman this year. He would be ending his 9th grade year. No ( Read more... )

Yes, it has been a long while. I don't even know where to start. I know, I will start by saying this. Depression. The end. There really isn't need to say much more. That simple word can say so much on it's own. Another word.. Josh. I have been thinking about him so much lately. The boy is always in my mind. Along with my heart. I love him. I always ( Read more... )

Um.. let's see I hate you. Yes.. I hate you. Because I am .. still up.. at 10:49 and I want to be dreaming. I also want Jared to call me or text me. I want to be able to hug my boyfriend..that I do not have. I .. want to be happy. Truly happy. I mean suure.. they say you have to make yourself happy. That you can't just expect it to happen. But. I ( Read more... )

I was fired today. I am not quite sure what to make of that. He said "I told you when I hired you that it would be hard work and that you would have to hussle. I talked to managment and I'm sorry but I am going to have to let you go ( Read more... )