I've been living in a dream lately, walking the surreal world. I've been losing myself again or rather my ability to think has burnt out. I can't depict my feelings for anything recently, I've become so monotone that I'm getting bored of myself. I have no energy and I feel like one big ball of nothing, if that can make any sense ( Read more... )

Have you ever asked youself why you're here ( Read more... )

You would think considering how much I update this shit and stuff that I dont have a life, buts it's completely the opposite. I am ALWAYS busy, there is never a time when I'm not doing anything. I am constantly working myself to the bone, I need to stop and smell the flowers. But there ARE no flowers. It's all just paved road. I have too much to do ( Read more... )

She shifts; uncomfortable in her own skin. Why is she here ( Read more... )

Had a good night last night with Maya. Ate some Tirimiso for breakfast, bought some new pants, transfered a new shirt. Watched some good movies. Now I have a headache, and am anticipating tomorrows show. Seeing Mary perform should be fun, I can't believe she's a screamer. Odd, but fun ( Read more... )

LAYER ONE ( Read more... )

I had the longest friggen day at work today, it was just neverending. I was supposed to be off at 3:30 but I did not get off work until like, 4:30. Only an hour I know but it was still just stupid. One thing was pretty neat today though, I saw that I was on Andrea's DeviantART and her Fotolog. This made me happy. She also said I was gorgeous. It ( Read more... )

I had a pretty good day today, I talked to Maya on the phone for a bit, woke up later and ate a smokie for lunch with my mama. I had a real good talk with Annie today, it was well needed. She came over for a bit, to tease Juan. We watched Labyrinth and took pictures of me! It was fun times 10. The only bad thing is, I have to work tomorrow and Im ( Read more... )

I'm feeling particularily upset today, for many reasons I suppose. I keep thinking of bad things, things that bring me down. It's been a long, hard day; I wish it would just end, but I'm not even tired. I've been so blank lately, it's like the only emotion I know is sad, and that's just not healthy. Maybe it's not even sad...it's just absent. Numb ( Read more... )

I feel so beautiful today, babababababadaba, you're just so typical you can't break me...
Although sometimes, it seems entirely possible. And when it is, what do I do?
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