It was still dark when Yosuke jerked awake, and he chalked it up to a mix of nerves and anticipation. Souji was still tucked against him, soft and warm and fast asleep, and Yosuke held him tight, closed his eyes, and tried to imagine the best possible outcome he could hope for. In an ideal world, Souji would pound Matsubara into the ground, but brutality wasn't Souji's style. No, he'd probably try to talk to him instead, which was a huge fucking joke when Yosuke really thought about it. Matsubara wouldn't be interested in anyone trying to understand him, or in defending his actions, or even in talking about himself, which arrogant bastards like him always loved to do. He, for some reason, would only be interested in humiliating Yosuke as much as possible, which meant that if Souji left him any opportunity to talk, Yosuke would definitely not like what he had to say. Maybe he'd have to hit first
( ... )
"Well, yes, but I'm not going to ask. You'll tell me if you want to."
"Because he paid attention to me if I did what he wanted me to do. That was it."
"Yosuke..."
"That was the reason I was 'friends' with all of them. But I wasn't anyone's 'friend,' not really. I did whatever they told me to do and in exchange I didn't have to be alone. I hated it. I hated them. I don't want to see him, I don't want to look at him, but I have to, because if I don't it will never be over and I can't do this anymore, I can't keep doing this
( ... )
They stood on the train platform together and watched the city move. It was early enough to still be slightly chilly and Yosuke shoved his hands into his pockets, pulling his jacket tighter around his body. What the hell were they even doing here? He hated this place - everything it reminded him of. He didn't think he'd ever come back here again, after this. He glanced over at Souji, who was looking straight ahead into the bustling mass of people as though he could see right through all of them. Maybe he could. Yosuke wasn't sure about him sometimes.
He knew it was up to him to lead and he did, weaving through crowds and down streets, and Souji followed him, easily keeping pace with him, not saying a word. Yosuke wasn't sure if he would have been able to respond if he had. He had never really been in a fight before - most of his fighting experience had come from other people beating the crap out of him or watching them beat the crap out of someone else - but this time he felt as though he had something to fight for
( ... )
"Go." Souji nudged him with his foot - kicked him, really - and Matsubara laughed again, followed Yosuke outside and leaned casually against the wall. Yosuke glanced around. This wasn't like Inaba. If they got into it here, in this part of town, nobody would bat an eye. Somebody would come by a few hours later and scrape them off the sidewalk, help themselves to whatever was in their wallets for the trouble, and that would be the end of it. All or nothing.
"What the fuck do you want, Matsubara?"
"I already got what I wanted."
"What was that?"
"Mori told me all about it, how you almost cried, how you would do anything so that he wouldn't find out what a bitch you are, how fucking delicious it was when you were choking on his cock - although really, someone with your history should have done a much better job. I was a little disappointed in that part. Losing your touch?"
"Shut the fuck up."
"Oh, sorry, I forgot, can't say those kinds of things in front of Seta... oh shit, he doesn't know, does he? He has no fucking clue! Oh shit,
( ... )
"I'm only letting you talk now because I'm not sure you'll be able to when we leave."
"Is that supposed to scare me? Are you trying to sound tough? It's like a little kid with a plastic gun who thinks he's invincible. I'm supposed to be afraid of the guy who took a train in a fucking urinal to have someone to sit with at lunch
( ... )
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anonymous
April 22 2012, 23:19:02 UTC
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He met Souji on the way to school the next morning, just where the road split, and the smile came almost as easily as it had used to.
"Hey."
"Hey. Souji... about that stuff yesterday..."
"You don't have to talk about it."
"It's not that. I mean, yeah, it kinda is, but... I don't want to... do that right now, I guess? I don't even want to think about it, and if I know you're thinking about it, then I kind of have to think about it, so
( ... )
Re: Thread 91/91 FINAL
anonymous
April 22 2012, 23:53:32 UTC
Except it wasn't lousy and don't ever apologize because this fic is and was beautiful and a very emotional, well-written, well-thought-out story. I've been following this from the first update or two and I'm actually kind of sad that it's ended even though it's ended so wonderfully. Man I can't even put into words how much I loved it and how many times I cried. I'm tearing up again now
It's beautiful and you're beautiful too, OP. Congrats on finishing and please do let us know if and when you're going to put this fic up outside LJ.
skdhskdg GOD thank you so much. i'm glad you liked it. i cried like 57932874 times writing it but i cry at everything including the final scene in home alone so i consider myself a terrible barometer...
i haven't tried my coding in ao3 but that will be my next project!! ♥
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anonymous
April 23 2012, 02:08:16 UTC
Oh... my gosh? This fic gave me so many feelings, my god. It's actually really difficult to type coherently right now, but I'll try!
I LOVE how you not only kept the theme of the request, but enhanced it. You brought out his deepest fears, ones that were actually mentioned in-game, even. His vulnerability in front of his computer, how he thought it was safe and okay... just. It seemed so real. His family problems and so, so susceptible to peer pressure. Ah, such as a teenager's life.
Then began the emotional roller coaster! Things got horrible, then it seemed to be getting better but then all hell breaks loose. Ugh, the EMOTIONS this made me feel!! The tears and hopeful moments and SOUJI and his FRIENDS ahhh. Him wanting to keep it a secret from Souji dkfjdskflj it was all too real and so perfect
Oops long comment! ah well I just really hope you keep on keeping on, and let us know if this is going to be posted elsewhere?? And THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR WRITING THIS.
fff thank YOU anon. yosuke is very relatable for me :') (and 90% of teenagers honestly) even as i was writing i was thinking YOSUKE NO DON'T DO THAT NO but then... !!
if this goes anywhere else i will drop a link. ugh best anons, you guys. ♥
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anonymous
April 23 2012, 02:33:11 UTC
FUCK FUCK FUCK THIS FIC MAN THIS FUCKING FIC
okay now that i've got that out i just want to say that i've been following this thing since like 70 or something and i kept anxiously awaiting updates and wow like this fic was literally perfect and everything i've ever wanted out of a souji/yosuke fic
your characterizations were perfect, the storyline was fantastic, and this fic just made me feel SO MANY THINGS. I love the ending, i love how you wrapped up everything and i just i really want to draw stuff for this fic omg
just, thank you so so much for writing this fic, thank you for keeping up with it, and thank you so much for just putting out such an amazing piece of work. this was just such a good fic i love it so much aaahhh <33
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anonymous
April 23 2012, 03:19:31 UTC
screams and dies of feelings!!!!!
man thank you anon for writing this fic, every time it's updated it's brought a bit of schadenfreude-joy into my life. other gushings and joys here. no sorries, it was quite great.
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"Because he paid attention to me if I did what he wanted me to do. That was it."
"Yosuke..."
"That was the reason I was 'friends' with all of them. But I wasn't anyone's 'friend,' not really. I did whatever they told me to do and in exchange I didn't have to be alone. I hated it. I hated them. I don't want to see him, I don't want to look at him, but I have to, because if I don't it will never be over and I can't do this anymore, I can't keep doing this ( ... )
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They stood on the train platform together and watched the city move. It was early enough to still be slightly chilly and Yosuke shoved his hands into his pockets, pulling his jacket tighter around his body. What the hell were they even doing here? He hated this place - everything it reminded him of. He didn't think he'd ever come back here again, after this. He glanced over at Souji, who was looking straight ahead into the bustling mass of people as though he could see right through all of them. Maybe he could. Yosuke wasn't sure about him sometimes.
He knew it was up to him to lead and he did, weaving through crowds and down streets, and Souji followed him, easily keeping pace with him, not saying a word. Yosuke wasn't sure if he would have been able to respond if he had. He had never really been in a fight before - most of his fighting experience had come from other people beating the crap out of him or watching them beat the crap out of someone else - but this time he felt as though he had something to fight for ( ... )
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"What the fuck do you want, Matsubara?"
"I already got what I wanted."
"What was that?"
"Mori told me all about it, how you almost cried, how you would do anything so that he wouldn't find out what a bitch you are, how fucking delicious it was when you were choking on his cock - although really, someone with your history should have done a much better job. I was a little disappointed in that part. Losing your touch?"
"Shut the fuck up."
"Oh, sorry, I forgot, can't say those kinds of things in front of Seta... oh shit, he doesn't know, does he? He has no fucking clue! Oh shit, ( ... )
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"Is that supposed to scare me? Are you trying to sound tough? It's like a little kid with a plastic gun who thinks he's invincible. I'm supposed to be afraid of the guy who took a train in a fucking urinal to have someone to sit with at lunch ( ... )
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"If I asked you to hold me, right now, would you?"
"Yes."
"Is that what you want?"
"Yes."
"But you won't ask me, will you?"
"No."
"Can I see your hand?"
Yosuke dropped his hand into Souji's expectant one. Souji turned it over and carefully traced I-<3-U into his skin with thumb ( ... )
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He met Souji on the way to school the next morning, just where the road split, and the smile came almost as easily as it had used to.
"Hey."
"Hey. Souji... about that stuff yesterday..."
"You don't have to talk about it."
"It's not that. I mean, yeah, it kinda is, but... I don't want to... do that right now, I guess? I don't even want to think about it, and if I know you're thinking about it, then I kind of have to think about it, so ( ... )
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It's beautiful and you're beautiful too, OP. Congrats on finishing and please do let us know if and when you're going to put this fic up outside LJ.
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i haven't tried my coding in ao3 but that will be my next project!! ♥
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I LOVE how you not only kept the theme of the request, but enhanced it. You brought out his deepest fears, ones that were actually mentioned in-game, even. His vulnerability in front of his computer, how he thought it was safe and okay... just. It seemed so real. His family problems and so, so susceptible to peer pressure. Ah, such as a teenager's life.
Then began the emotional roller coaster! Things got horrible, then it seemed to be getting better but then all hell breaks loose. Ugh, the EMOTIONS this made me feel!! The tears and hopeful moments and SOUJI and his FRIENDS ahhh. Him wanting to keep it a secret from Souji dkfjdskflj it was all too real and so perfect
Oops long comment! ah well I just really hope you keep on keeping on, and let us know if this is going to be posted elsewhere?? And THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR WRITING THIS.
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if this goes anywhere else i will drop a link. ugh best anons, you guys. ♥
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FUCK
FUCK
THIS FIC MAN
THIS FUCKING FIC
okay now that i've got that out i just want to say that i've been following this thing since like 70 or something and i kept anxiously awaiting updates and wow like this fic was literally perfect and everything i've ever wanted out of a souji/yosuke fic
your characterizations were perfect, the storyline was fantastic, and this fic just made me feel SO MANY THINGS. I love the ending, i love how you wrapped up everything and i just
i really want to draw stuff for this fic omg
just, thank you so so much for writing this fic, thank you for keeping up with it, and thank you so much for just putting out such an amazing piece of work. this was just such a good fic i love it so much aaahhh <33
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i just. i really hate every ending i write but especially this one so i'm like beside myself that people DON'T hate it...
honestly i am not sure what i will do with myself now that i do not have yosuke to torture on a weekly basis.
just. thank you for reading this, seriously.
OH and if you do draw anything please link me as i will quietly (or not quietly) treasure it and hoard it like a squirrel with an acorn!!
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man thank you anon for writing this fic, every time it's updated it's brought a bit of schadenfreude-joy into my life. other gushings and joys here. no sorries, it was quite great.
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