I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (36a/...?)
anonymous
April 22 2012, 23:47:54 UTC
"You know," Chie tells him--perhaps to distract him from her chopsticks, deftly sneaking a bite from his plate--"there was a time when I had a crush on you."
Yosuke splutters ungracefully. "Wh-what? When?"
"When you first moved here."
"And then I opened my mouth?"
"No." She smacks him with her free hand. "I liked you for months. But then we got to know each other, got to be friends--and don't take this the wrong way, but I like you in the friend zone."
Yosuke nods. "Yeah, me, too."
"Yeah, yeah. So, don't even torture yourself with all that 'Souji couldn't possibly like me for real' bullshit. 'Cause he could. What he did was fucked up--I'm not saying it wasn't. I'd still kick his ass, if he walked in here, right now. But all this insecurity, all this 'I'm not good enough' crapola, that shouldn't even enter into your decision." She grins. There's a piece of spinach stuck between her teeth. She licks it away, before he can point it out
( ... )
I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (36b/...?)
anonymous
April 22 2012, 23:49:30 UTC
He gasps, as a heavy hand claps his shoulder from behind. Braces himself: any moment now--any moment--that hand'll shove him into the lockers, and if he's lucky, he'll only bruise. If he's lucky
( ... )
"And now, for the million-dollar question: what's next for our talented Mr. Hanamura?"
"Oh, uh--" Yosuke ducks his head, swallows hard: that question wasn't on the list. He's got nothing--and how the hell did Rise do it, back when she was Risette? He looks for Dad, for his manager, for Kanji or Rise, even Naoto, but the lights are everywhere; the lights are in his face. And his makeup's starting to run, and he might just burst into tears, and what if he pukes, pukes on TV, in front of--in front of--
C'mon. This is an easy one.
"I haven't decided yet. I mean--well, y'know--I got offered a scholarship, if I could get my grades up. To study music, which is...like, I wanna do more writing, and maybe--uh, the production end of things, I guess. And…well, you've all heard Internet Boyfriend. You know I'm not that smart. So
( ... )
I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (37b/...?)
anonymous
April 22 2012, 23:58:24 UTC
"I just…." The train vanishes into a tunnel, and he watches for it to come out the other side. "I mean…I've been thinking about it practically this whole time--what I wanted to say to him, what I wanted to do, even what I wanted him to say, but I--I mean, what if it doesn't even matter, any more?"
"How do you mean?"
"Like, with Internet Boyfriend, and the album, and me maybe getting that scholarship, and moving away…and everyone knowing I like guys, now--fuck, why didn't I take down all that shit about how gay I am, before I started getting popular? What if he doesn't want to be associated with that? There's whole message board threads, people trying to figure out who the real boyfriend was, and…. And I--I...what if he's only coming here to say…."
"Goodbye?"
"Yeah."
"Oh, man. I hadn't even thought of that." Kanji kicks a rock. It skitters off the platform, and clatters on the tracks below. "Well, what did you want to say to him? I mean, if you don't want to be with him, either, no problem. Right
( ... )
I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (38/...?)
anonymous
April 23 2012, 00:02:03 UTC
From: nosy Subject: please read this Date: July 19, 2012, 2:14:06 PM To: souji seta i am so fucking sorry about today. i was there. i swear i was, but i saw the train coming and all these thoughts came jumbling into my head, and i thought i was going to lose it…oh god. couldn't face you like that. not with everything i'd saved up to say twisting my tongue into knots, and i was scared you wouldn't even want to see me…did kanji tell you already
( ... )
I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (39a/40)
anonymous
April 23 2012, 00:12:01 UTC
Souji looks terrible. Nervous. Tired.
"What's the matter?"
He shakes his head, blinks, and licks his lips. "I--I couldn't help but notice, in your e-mail…." He blinks again, and scrubs at his mouth. "You didn't actually say you wanted to…to have me in your life."
Yosuke looks down at his hands. "No. I guess I didn't."
Silence stretches between them, chilly and uncomfortable. Downstairs, Dad's puttering about, making more noise than he probably needs to. Making his presence known, no doubt: that's right, kids; I'm home--no funny business. Souji gets an orange prescription bottle out of his jacket pocket, and sets it down on the night-table, with a quiet clack.
"What--?"
"I stole this," he says.
"Uh…okay?"
"Really?"
"No!" Yosuke snatches the bottle. "Fuck that--not okay! Why would you…where'd you even
( ... )
I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (40b/40)
anonymous
April 23 2012, 00:20:20 UTC
ho_down37777 2012-12-25 5:22 AM (link)
Hehehe, you always sound whiny, but that's why we heart you. (Just teasing!) Have fun with "Internet BF." And if you can't get those leather pants off, you could always keep them on, and take some pics for your fans….just sayin'….
DAT ASS! ::trollface::
(Reply to this) (Thread)
blancmange_party 2012-12-25 5:23 AM (link)
HAPPY XMAS/NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! (I'm getting your album for Xmas, and you were also just on the radio, LOL.)
(Reply to this) (Thread)
carpal_bong 2012-12-25 5:25 AM (link)
gdi, i never get first comment any moar. remember when it used to be just me replyin 2 most of ur entries? i was the original hana fan. don't forget it. lol neway, glad its still workin out with u guys. i was like "no wai" when u first got back with him, but i guess u knew wat u were doin. gl gettin out of your pants.
I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (40c/40)
anonymous
April 23 2012, 00:29:01 UTC
Yosuke's practically nodding off into his soup, by the time Dad's got lunch on the table. But that's fine; that's all right. Dad and Souji are talking, laughing--Dad's telling some story about the tour, the one he always tells, where someone threw a rose on stage, and Yosuke thought it was a mouse, and screamed into the mic.
"It worries me, sometimes," he says. Yosuke's heard this before, too, heard it enough times that he doesn't even roll his eyes. "There are people who like him because he's so vulnerable, because of things like the rose, and his vomiting on the stage at--"
"Dad!"
"Sorry." But he doesn't sound sorry. He sounds happy, and concerned, and sort of indulgent. He plops a big scoop of goma-ae onto Yosuke's plate, and bids him eat. Souji's already digging in.
This is good.
__________________________________________________________________________________ ...and that's it! Hope the long wait didn't totally ruin the ending! And, wow, when did the captcha thingies become impossible to decipher? AUGH!
Re: I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (40c/40)
anonymous
April 25 2012, 13:41:00 UTC
Oh my god, ANON. You don't know how happy I was to see this update. To be completely honest, this fic is probably 70-80% of the reason I'm still on the kink meme at all (not that the other anons aren't doing good work here -- but I've been here for a couple of years right now, and I'm definitely starting to feel like it's time for me to move on), so it meant so much to me to finally see it finished, and to see you here again one last time? wait, no, now I'm just getting morbid, and to get this sense of, I don't even know, closure for these guys and myself. Like, you've been one of my favorite parts of the whole meme, and this story in particular fills me with so many feelings, and I feel like we've all gone on a ~journey~ together (even though anonymity means it's been a lot easier for me to identify you than it has for you to ever identify me -- but take my word that I've been here all along! I've tried to comment as often as I could). It's like the closing of a really special chapter of my internet life
( ... )
Re: I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (40c/40)
anonymous
April 26 2012, 02:01:48 UTC
And thank YOU for the lovely comment! <3 <3 <3 I was beginning to think I totally screwed up the ending, as the days were passing, and nobody was saying anything! Phew! I'm so glad you enjoyed it. In fact, it sort of felt like a weird meme journey for me, as well...not just with this fic, but with everything I've written here. I normally don't write fanfic or participate in fandom at all, but this was just the outlet I needed during a time of...well, having the worst/most boring job in the world, and needing SOMETHING to fill up these insanely long, dull shifts with. But I've definitely moved on professionally since then, and you're probably right about the whole "one last time" bit. I might occasionally write a shorter fill, when I have a dull day at my current job, or when it's raining and there's nothing to do, but I don't think I'll have the time or energy to commit to something quite as long and involved as this, again. Oh, and I might finish "Souji Pees on Everyone," at some point...ha, ha, ha
( ... )
Re: I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (40c/40)
anonymous
January 12 2013, 16:50:32 UTC
Anon who originally hoped the author might re-upload the story elsewhere (and was just now checking flatview by chance -- hello!)
Ooh! Do you happen to know a nice way to archive it, by any chance? Because I was recently trying to back up the part that's on the old meme, and discovered that LJ's new comment scheme and its fancy expand option make saving whole pages a nightmare. If there's a way to save this fic (or any other kink meme fill) and preserve the formatting without having to copy-paste the code of each individual comment by hand, I would love you forever.
(Hope it's okay if I ask this, authornon -- wouldn't want to tread on your toes! I just adore this fic and would like to have a hard copy that looks as pretty as possible, just in case livejournal does ever give up the ghost.)
Re: I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (40c/40)
anonymous
April 30 2012, 04:25:42 UTC
Oh. My. This has been quite a ride. Thank you. I'm really really glad I only just read the whole thing this morning, because I don't know how I could have waited that long between updates.
I love that Souji's fucked up in his own way, too. But I really REALLY love that bit about him not being everything to Yosuke because as much as I enjoy their get-together fics, I also enjoy Yosuke growing in that direction as a character, even without the yay-I-nailed-down-the-leader aspect.
I love all the little details about Yosuke with the rest of the team: his BFFery with Kanji, Naoto not tolerating him but actually liking him, Yukiko being ruthless, Chie actually being attracted to him at first...yeah.
Anyway basically this was amazing, how you made them work for it, how you made US work for it, heh. I'm glad I decided to read this fic instead of something productive and socially-desirable. (Real life? Blech.) Thank you, again. I also hope you get this on AO3 or somewhere for easy bookmarking and reccing.
Re: I HAVE NO DUNGEON, AND I MUST TROLL (40c/40)
anonymous
May 2 2012, 03:37:35 UTC
Thank you so much for reading, and for commenting! It really means a lot, to know people enjoyed it! <3 <3 <3
I'm glad it worked for you, Yosuke growing out of his extreme neediness a bit...I always thought he would NEED that kind of perspective and growth before he could really have a mature relationship, even without all the conflict involved with this fill.
And I have to say, the little snippets with the rest of the team were some of my favourite parts to write. It was fun to imagine how Yosuke might relate to them, both at his worst moments and with his growing confidence. :-)
Yosuke splutters ungracefully. "Wh-what? When?"
"When you first moved here."
"And then I opened my mouth?"
"No." She smacks him with her free hand. "I liked you for months. But then we got to know each other, got to be friends--and don't take this the wrong way, but I like you in the friend zone."
Yosuke nods. "Yeah, me, too."
"Yeah, yeah. So, don't even torture yourself with all that 'Souji couldn't possibly like me for real' bullshit. 'Cause he could. What he did was fucked up--I'm not saying it wasn't. I'd still kick his ass, if he walked in here, right now. But all this insecurity, all this 'I'm not good enough' crapola, that shouldn't even enter into your decision." She grins. There's a piece of spinach stuck between her teeth. She licks it away, before he can point it out ( ... )
Reply
Reply
From: souji_mobile
11:15, Thursday. Hope to see you there….
______________________________________________________________________________________
"And now, for the million-dollar question: what's next for our talented Mr. Hanamura?"
"Oh, uh--" Yosuke ducks his head, swallows hard: that question wasn't on the list. He's got nothing--and how the hell did Rise do it, back when she was Risette? He looks for Dad, for his manager, for Kanji or Rise, even Naoto, but the lights are everywhere; the lights are in his face. And his makeup's starting to run, and he might just burst into tears, and what if he pukes, pukes on TV, in front of--in front of--
C'mon. This is an easy one.
"I haven't decided yet. I mean--well, y'know--I got offered a scholarship, if I could get my grades up. To study music, which is...like, I wanna do more writing, and maybe--uh, the production end of things, I guess. And…well, you've all heard Internet Boyfriend. You know I'm not that smart. So ( ... )
Reply
"How do you mean?"
"Like, with Internet Boyfriend, and the album, and me maybe getting that scholarship, and moving away…and everyone knowing I like guys, now--fuck, why didn't I take down all that shit about how gay I am, before I started getting popular? What if he doesn't want to be associated with that? There's whole message board threads, people trying to figure out who the real boyfriend was, and…. And I--I...what if he's only coming here to say…."
"Goodbye?"
"Yeah."
"Oh, man. I hadn't even thought of that." Kanji kicks a rock. It skitters off the platform, and clatters on the tracks below. "Well, what did you want to say to him? I mean, if you don't want to be with him, either, no problem. Right ( ... )
Reply
Subject: please read this
Date: July 19, 2012, 2:14:06 PM
To: souji seta
i am so fucking sorry about today. i was there. i swear i was, but i saw the train coming and all these thoughts came jumbling into my head, and i thought i was going to lose it…oh god. couldn't face you like that. not with everything i'd saved up to say twisting my tongue into knots, and i was scared you wouldn't even want to see me…did kanji tell you already ( ... )
Reply
"What's the matter?"
He shakes his head, blinks, and licks his lips. "I--I couldn't help but notice, in your e-mail…." He blinks again, and scrubs at his mouth. "You didn't actually say you wanted to…to have me in your life."
Yosuke looks down at his hands. "No. I guess I didn't."
Silence stretches between them, chilly and uncomfortable. Downstairs, Dad's puttering about, making more noise than he probably needs to. Making his presence known, no doubt: that's right, kids; I'm home--no funny business. Souji gets an orange prescription bottle out of his jacket pocket, and sets it down on the night-table, with a quiet clack.
"What--?"
"I stole this," he says.
"Uh…okay?"
"Really?"
"No!" Yosuke snatches the bottle. "Fuck that--not okay! Why would you…where'd you even ( ... )
Reply
Reply
opiate of the asses (nobody_nose) wrote,
@ 2012-12-25 05:21:30
Current mood: eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Current music: TM Revolution - Vertical Infinity ( ... )
Reply
2012-12-25 5:22 AM (link)
Hehehe, you always sound whiny, but that's why we heart you. (Just teasing!) Have fun with "Internet BF." And if you can't get those leather pants off, you could always keep them on, and take some pics for your fans….just sayin'….
DAT ASS! ::trollface::
(Reply to this) (Thread)
blancmange_party
2012-12-25 5:23 AM (link)
HAPPY XMAS/NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! (I'm getting your album for Xmas, and you were also just on the radio, LOL.)
(Reply to this) (Thread)
carpal_bong
2012-12-25 5:25 AM (link)
gdi, i never get first comment any moar. remember when it used to be just me replyin 2 most of ur entries? i was the original hana fan. don't forget it. lol neway, glad its still workin out with u guys. i was like "no wai" when u first got back with him, but i guess u knew wat u were doin. gl gettin out of your pants.
(Reply to this) (Thread)
snibblefnoo
2012-12-25 5:25 AM (link)
u suck
(Reply to this) (Thread)
snibblefnoo
2012-12-25 5:25 AM (link)
and t.m. revolution sucks too
(Reply to ( ... )
Reply
"It worries me, sometimes," he says. Yosuke's heard this before, too, heard it enough times that he doesn't even roll his eyes. "There are people who like him because he's so vulnerable, because of things like the rose, and his vomiting on the stage at--"
"Dad!"
"Sorry." But he doesn't sound sorry. He sounds happy, and concerned, and sort of indulgent. He plops a big scoop of goma-ae onto Yosuke's plate, and bids him eat. Souji's already digging in.
This is good.
__________________________________________________________________________________
...and that's it! Hope the long wait didn't totally ruin the ending! And, wow, when did the captcha thingies become impossible to decipher? AUGH!
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Ooh! Do you happen to know a nice way to archive it, by any chance? Because I was recently trying to back up the part that's on the old meme, and discovered that LJ's new comment scheme and its fancy expand option make saving whole pages a nightmare. If there's a way to save this fic (or any other kink meme fill) and preserve the formatting without having to copy-paste the code of each individual comment by hand, I would love you forever.
(Hope it's okay if I ask this, authornon -- wouldn't want to tread on your toes! I just adore this fic and would like to have a hard copy that looks as pretty as possible, just in case livejournal does ever give up the ghost.)
Reply
I love that Souji's fucked up in his own way, too. But I really REALLY love that bit about him not being everything to Yosuke because as much as I enjoy their get-together fics, I also enjoy Yosuke growing in that direction as a character, even without the yay-I-nailed-down-the-leader aspect.
I love all the little details about Yosuke with the rest of the team: his BFFery with Kanji, Naoto not tolerating him but actually liking him, Yukiko being ruthless, Chie actually being attracted to him at first...yeah.
Anyway basically this was amazing, how you made them work for it, how you made US work for it, heh. I'm glad I decided to read this fic instead of something productive and socially-desirable. (Real life? Blech.) Thank you, again. I also hope you get this on AO3 or somewhere for easy bookmarking and reccing.
Reply
I'm glad it worked for you, Yosuke growing out of his extreme neediness a bit...I always thought he would NEED that kind of perspective and growth before he could really have a mature relationship, even without all the conflict involved with this fill.
And I have to say, the little snippets with the rest of the team were some of my favourite parts to write. It was fun to imagine how Yosuke might relate to them, both at his worst moments and with his growing confidence. :-)
Reply
Leave a comment