רץ למרחקים קצרים
קופץ מעל מכשולים
זוחל בין קוצים ואבנים

שוחה מתחת לגלים
עיניים פקוחות במים מלוחים
מחפש חוף מבטחים

עייפתי מתלאות ומירורים
שבעתי מהארות וגילויים
מאסתי בחזיונות ותעתועים

געגועים לעצמי
למי שהייתי מזמן
לפני שמצאתי את כל התשובות
כשהיה כל כך פשוט
פשוט להיות

Voila! All good now.

Me smart. =D

-s

This morning was.. special. I woke up at 6:30, checked up on Karin and went back to bed. Couldn't sleep. Cried for 5 minutes straight. Lotsa pain. Out of the blue. Got up and chatted with Karin though I wanted her to go to do her hw and go to sleep. I'm throwing off her sleeping schedule. Not good. It's her choice but I am not doing anything to ( Read more... )

how is babby formed ( Read more... )

Too much time alone. Head trips. Karin was able to make me feel better for a while. Now I started looking for a guitar teacher and I see success stories.. or maybe it only seems that way.. but I see people who went after their dream and I look at myself. My dream is slipping away. I can't even grasp it anymore. I used to be able to fantasize and ( Read more... )

Ok I went rummaging through old text file piles and I found this thing I wrote. It was the only thing that didn't make me wanna vomit all over my keyboard ( Read more... )

These last few nights have been tough. By night I mean right before I go to bed. When all those random thoughts just seem to mesh together. I've been having visions of memories long forgotten. All kinds of stuff. Back from the time I was living with my mom and alon and danielle were staying in my room. Closeness. Company. Overwhelming. It's been ( Read more... )

everything i write is shit! shit for words is all i have. BAH. when will this blockage be removedddddd...??! howwwwwwwwwwwww. i can't write anything and i can barely touch the guitar goddamit. oh well. this winter will give me a shove hopefully. 2009 is going to be fruitful. no matter what ( Read more... )

i'm losing my mind here. i feel like this is war. i will not surrender. this time i'm holding my line and i don't care what the toll is. i will not be controlled. i will not drown in guilt. i'd rather burn in anger. i could seriously do some damage right now. my entire body is throbbing.

fuck you.

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