Life continues to be a game of just getting by or at least it feel like it. I always feel overwhelmed- why does everyone else seem so together?

I am just so tired of anxiety. The always present- gnaw. I am tired of life sucking.

I am so heartbroken about my mother

My mom had a biopsy a week ago Monday. she was told 10-14 days for results. She was then given an additional appointment for a full body scan with an appointment to talk to the specialist on the 27. My question is- doesn't over a month sound like a long time to get the results of a biopsy? It was a lung biopsy- why are they making my mother wait so ( Read more... )

Been a little absent from here. Life has been coping only. I just find it so hard to believe where I am in life - wonder how I got here and wonder where to go. I feel lost and alone most of the time. The only true happiness I have felt is my daughter. Thank God for that child. How can anything that produced such a wonderous person be a mistake? I ( Read more... )

so angry right now at her new school- We made choices based on information which is now no longer true- going to lose it on someone

I feel a sense of some small relief- I know messages have been delivered and can maybe get something worked out without urgent court orders. My life is bizarro world right now. I don't know what I think or feel- I say that because it changes like the wind- all these jumble of emotions- My brain seems to be having difficulty assimilating everything ( Read more... )

I have specific resolutions this year. I am going to work on toning, strengthening and kicking my abs into shape- goal for flatter- stronger core- March Break trip to Mexico-primary goal. Secondary is to tone my arms/shoulders/upper back- same timeline. Third- to see more my friends more often- nurture the relationships more. Dinner date set with ( Read more... )

 remember heather , the loser single girl- who worked with martin and now lives 3 doors up. Well even though she got married in September apparently her and her husband are glorified roommates now and now she wants Martin to help her do renovations at her own apartment so she has somewhere to go. So troubled fucked up chick with the bad marriage ( Read more... )

emotional day at work- first Martin's  Grandmama passed away and he left to go to Quebec last night. This morning I made the mistake of watching a video of an older brother surprising his little brother at school after coming home from Iraq- made me teary-then in the photocopy room I ran into Walter- he a teacher here  in his 60's but his mom just ( Read more... )