i've been having trouble sleeping. when i try, i start to think that no, there's no time to sleep. i'm behind on everything--which is true. but i also suspect that these feelings of anxiety are in anticipation of the end of school and the question of what to do with my life ( Read more... )

well, well..in honor of my own birthday, i entered and exited may 21st tripping balls, so to speak. back in february, i did ecstasy and then, shortly after, dxm and salvia, and for a couple months after that nothing except the occasional drink ( Read more... )

ah yes, i am excited for summer, and i'm excited to move to new haven ( Read more... )

last night, i had the best time ever hanging out, listening to music, and talking with a guy who is married. he reminds me that nice, funny, smart guys exist, and he makes me want to meet one my own age.

today was quite a day. i actually woke up early enough to be on time for work. at 1:30, we heard an explosion and the power went out. at 2, i was allowed to go home. i arrived at my building, checked my mail, and my letter from yale had finally arrived. so i went upstairs, put my stuff down, peed, and sat down to inspect the envelope ( Read more... )

hey hey ( Read more... )

so i think i had a stomach virus, cos i ended up puking until 7 in the morning, having to call in sick to work, etc. in the last 48 hours i have eaten and kept down: a bottle of ginger ale, half a bottle of gatorade, and a part of a bowl of cheerios. wooooo ( Read more... )

i've been feeling kinda sick lately.

R. Crumb, one of my favorite humans, explains his comix as reflecting the fucked up associations he can't pretend not to have. he does not comment directly on america, on the notion of race, on women, but he exhibits himself as a specimen of american whitemale (remove one "item," and it's a whale! that's much nicer...).

a train creeps into its station, and the musk of every local species waits, patiently, to carry passengers further in the first breath than all the miles passed in the overnight ride. as i step to the platform, already i've made myself pluto's bride, reliving my life of six months earlier, the pearly glow of my wedding dress reduced to my bedtime ( Read more... )