No one has emailed me addresses yet. Do you all just not want Christmas cards or what? I'd really like to send them out but I can't if I don't have addresses ( Read more... )

Behind the cut cuz I can't read it on my page - black font on a blue background is really hard to read.
( this is fun )

So last night I went over to my friend/hairstylist's house and she dyed my hair for me. It's now closer to my normal color (which is a brown that seems to get darker as I age) with some lighter brown highlights. I'm still not used to it yet but I like it. She did a great job and she did it so much cheaper than if I would've made an appointment ( Read more... )

I am so seriously bored right now. I still don't have much to do on a daily basis. I am learning a couple of new things everyday but it is so slow going right now. I feel like I still have to wait and ask people what to do next. I am wasting a lot of time on the computer obsessivly checking my email and LJ because there is NOTHING else to do ( Read more... )

Stopped at Gallagher's to pick up my bonus check and return my keys last night. Chatted with most everyone that was working. It was good to see everybody. People were asking me if I was totally done working there then. I said yes and I made sure to tell them all I was told not to return to work. What the hell do I care? To top it off, my ( Read more... )

Well Thanksgiving is over. It was a good day. I got up at 8am (I know, I know...) and was over to my parents house by around 10:30 or so. Spent the whole day there. Brought the dog so he wasn't alone. We had a really good dinner and then after dinner we chilled out for a while. I think I napped briefly. Later in the evening we busted out ( Read more... )

So it was not my intention to totally leave Gallagher's just yet. I was only going to serve until about Christmas and then possibly leave after that. But I confronted Paul Jr. about why I wasn't on the serving schedule that was posted on Friday night and he lied to me. I asked him if he wanted me to come in or not and he said he was planning on ( Read more... )

I am no longer an employee at Gallagher's. More to follow as I need to get in bed now. I start my new job in the morning.

I am scared shitless.

But ready to start the next chapter in my life.

I still miss Kevin dearly.

I hope with my new job I can get myself into a daily pattern or routine. I haven't been taking my meds at all lately and I can feel myself slipping back into the insanity that I felt almost a year ago. The OCD need to call Kevin everyday and bitch him out for not loving me is really strong right now. I feel this intense need to control the ( Read more... )

Last night was filled with fitful sleep. I feel horrible this morning. Worn out and dumpy. I haven't cried myself to sleep much in the last year or so. I was doing so well on feeling better about myself and my life. I suppose that's what happens when everything seems to be fine though. This summer was amazing. I had a job that paid me a ( Read more... )