so here i am. i'm still walking this earth as unhappy as can be. i even asked josh montoya for advice yesterday about how he deals with depression. i cry uncontrollably for long periods of time when things are seemingly ok. i have verious reasons why i cry, but they shouldnt be making me cry. *sigh* the only time i'm "happy" is when i'm with ( Read more... )

"Hey, ain't life wonderful? Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful... Isn't it wonderful now ( Read more... )

i had an interesting night... good night.

joshie: When I saw u at prom I started to become interested
joshie: U were absolutely stunning
me: lol you kept turning towards me when you were dancing with amanda and i felt so bad
joshie: That's cause I thought u were breath taking

i'm talking to my two favorite men right now. well, one's a man (john) and ones a boy/guy (my bf josh). john told me i have nice boobs and then guessed them at the right size. i was very flattered and impressed. josh is a horn dog. i bet no one could guess that. oh everyone except john because he seemed to have him pegged. haha. but yea ( Read more... )

Lauren: it was funny, he left a message for my away message
Lauren: and it said one of those girlies is mine

laurens away message was "acting stupid with my girls"

josh asked me out last night. we're offical. and we're offically annoying everyone with our pda's so we're gonna stop. but oh does he do it for me. he rocks my socks. we looked at models today and i found my dream house. sigh... 2 mil is all i need... any donations ( Read more... )

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ok so tonight was incredibly fun. lauren and i drove over to subway to pick josh up from work. then we went to in n out for food for josh. after that we went to taco bell for food for lauren. then we drove up to kims house... or at least the general area. then we went to vertigo hill which is on the way back from kims house. we rolled down ( Read more... )

i hate taking pics of people so a lot of these are of the sunset and the nasty monsoon clouds and stuff... heh...

( the beauty )