I was looking through here taking a walk down memory lane. I can not believe how much I have changed in the last 5 years. I was really weird! I had to be so annoying to everyone when they read my journal. Ha! I have probably even said that sometime back! Gosh, looking at my user pic is really depressing. I was so skinny back then! Making a note to ( Read more... )

Life is still ok...for now :). Shane and I have finally learned that blessed art of communication...finally! Work sucks...but that is nothing new, right ;)? I think i have finally figured out why I hate work sooo much. Its April. I hate work because of her, she thinks that just because she is the director that everyone should bend over backwards ( Read more... )

it hit me like a ton of bricks today. i have never had a true friend, as far as having a girl that i was totally close and knew my inner most heart, knowing just as much as shane would. it seems like everytime i try to be friends with a girl something always happens and it always ends. i mean emily became friends with people that didn't want to ( Read more... )

i just wish that a certain someone would forgive me, i admitted that i was a bitch and that i was sorry. she refuses to even contact me. tomorrow is her birthday and i just want to tell her to go to hell. i watched her get married, she asked me to be a bridesmaid...but yet she'll say she only has one female friend, how could she not expect me to be ( Read more... )

I am vastly enjoying my work free week!! Although I will have to go up to work in the next 2 days to train as the director...but hey, I'm free otherwise!! Work is about to get better I think, not only am I becoming director but J is leaving!! It is not that I don't like her...its just that she went on a power trip her last month on the job and it ( Read more... )

Why is it that I always end up going over the same stuff over and over again? Why do I feel the need to beat a dead horse? Why can't I for once just learn to let go and enjoy my life? Why can't I feel positive for once.....I mean come on, my life is not that terrible. I do have a job....and most of the time I'm glad to go to work. The kids are ( Read more... )

Its really funny how when you think things are about to change that they always go back to being the same. Shane has yet again back tracked and taken away the one thing he knows I'm wanting. A few weeks ago he told me to go ahead and plan the wedding, well when I start he gets nervous and changes his mind saying that it takes the fun and suprise ( Read more... )

Shane is gone so i am sitting here all alone. I can't believe he volunteered to go 20 hours away to pick up Mike. I am going to kick his ass the next time he volunteers to do something crazy like that. I am very scared of being here alone...but I have to do this. I am a big girl, but that doesn't mean I like it. I am like soo lonely right now. He' ( Read more... )

Well my new job is going splendidly. I love all the kids, and its really nice not feeling like someone is breathing down your neck all the time. I even got a sort of promotion. I have to open the day care now, and I'm even having to do some office work. The coolest part, is I'm the one people have to call into when they aren't going to be coming to ( Read more... )

Today...I started making positive changes in my life * Thanks Mike for your comment by the way!! You made me feel really good!!* I actually finished getting the bed room clean and it was day 2 for keeping the kitchen straight. I don't want to be a grown up...but i need to be. My situation is precarious and I have to make what I can control ( Read more... )