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Today is today not yesterday or tommorrow but today...
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So! He has decided I am his girlfriend!!! :) lol I know this sounds silly but it is something I was scared about (I even wrote about it so im not going to retell). But last night we were talking and he said that I was his girlfriend. I was shocked so asked him about it, and he said yes I was his girlfriend!!! YA! Then today he invited me over ( Read more... ) -
I want ice cream damnit
LOL ya I do! but not going to happen. I also want AJ! This sucks. Since we have met we have spent SOOOO much time together that not having him around makes me sad. The longest time we have spent apart was three days and we got to talk those three days. Today is day two of not getting to see or talk for four days. This thought makes me sad ( Read more... ) -
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I think the cutest softest little snore has just caused me to fall. -
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so I'm waiting on my computer to stop being slow so I think I will update ( Read more... ) -
grrrr
I am sick of being sick. The only good thing that comes out of is it the weight loss lol! I am sick to my stomach almost everyday now! I have also been getting physically sick like at least two times a week the last couple of weeks. its horrible. I am sick of it. lol. I have lost 10 pounds in the past week or two. That makes a total of 25 ( Read more... ) -
yaay
Yesterday was my birthday. One year gone. I am now 22 the double twos lol so its nothing too exciting. We did go out as a family to Ginza my favorite restaurant. but I was dead tired so went to bed at 930 as soon as I got home...
AND another year where my dad has not even tried to contact me...
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Today
So things are still really hard but I guess slowly getting better. It still hurts but I've been crying less so that's a major plus! However I still wish he would call me and tell me he was wrong and he loves me. But as each day passes it seems less and less likely and become more accustom to it. I want to stay friends because he is amazing and ( Read more... ) -
once again confused
He doesnt want me, period, end of story. So when will i get over it ( Read more... ) -
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This isnt as easy as I thought it would be.
I didn't realize there would be this much crying.
I wake up in the middle of the night
and just cry myself back to sleep.
I know now it wasn't just the idea of you.
It was you...
why god can't it be me?
Or at the LEAST could you stop the hurt and crying?