Why are you so scared of having someone actually care about you? It drives me insane ( Read more... )

I leave in 15 minutes for the hospital.

Please cross your fingers and hope they can pinpoint what is wrong. Because if not, my daddy is leaving me in their care for a while.

Hopefully just a few days or something.

Wish me luck. :\

I got a lot done yesterday.

First off, my bronchitis is gone enough that I'm finally able to jog again. I only ran a mile, but that's good because I haven't been able to run in almost a month and I didn't want to strain myself. I'm so pissed at being sick, my poor calf muscles are not what they used to be.


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I really wish I could say what I feel here, but it's so hard to do. I'm inspired to write, but fear of revealing my deepest darkest secrets is holding me back.

I wish people only had minds, but no mouths. Then I could write and nobody could ever give me away.

I lost track of the days, and didn't buy the new MSI cd until today.

This coming from the girl who hadn't previously actually bought a cd in three years. I'm still undecided on how much I like it. I need some alone time with it ( Read more... )

So I fell asleep around 7pm. Chad called me at 8:30pm. I couldn't go back to sleep, so I went and stared at my collection of hair dyes.

...I'm a bit compulsive.


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I'm still really sick. Not going to school, again. I went to school 1 out of 4 days this week. Fuck I rock ( Read more... )

I started the evil satan pills again, and it's making my appetite go away. I'm down to 1000-1200 calories a day, and it's not like it's even hard to accomplish ( Read more... )

I accidentally gave myself a cut in the back of my throat, right next to my uvula. It HURTS. I didn't notice much until today when I ate mustard and it fucking BURNED. AGH.

Lovely things are happening to me. I'm constantly freezing, my fingernails keep turning blue underneath, I'm dizzy, and my heart is palpatating. Something is seriously wrong.

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