Devon and I enjoyed a lovely long weekend in Victoria, froufing it up at The Fairmont. I may consider staying elsewhere next time, our room this time was pretty lame for $150/night :P ( Read more... )

Nothing like having life give you the flu and a pink slip to wake you up and remind you that you're worthless :P ( Read more... )

I miss fucking around. I really miss random sex. I miss the touch of someone who doesn't know me.

I miss taking a walk, knowing fully well where it's going to lead to.

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...So who feels like dancing and a cold shower? :P

I think I replaced my sex drive with dancing ( Read more... )

I don't know why I feel so stressed ( Read more... )

....this feeling inside.

For the first time, in about 3 years, I'm not secondarily attached to someone else and it's okay.

I notice now, when I'm daydreaming, it's not about some lust-filled fantasy, it's about...riding my bike somewhere warm and pretty. Or dancing.

I fantasize about dancing a lot. lol

I'm so scared to jinx it, I'm so scared it'll be taken away from me. I'm so busy these days, I feel exhausted every day. I've never been so driven ( Read more... )

I can't say it on facebook, for fear it might get back to you somehow and questions will be asked.

I probably shouldn't say it here, either.
But I'm too nice and you cross my mind once and awhile, still.

Happy Birthday.

I miss you.
But I'm okay with that.

I'd rather miss you than let you hurt me.

I've finally decided it's time to cover up the self-harm scars I have on my left arm.

I want some form of Akhilanda to cover them. The Goddess of Never Not Broken. A Hindu goddess, I discovered her via this article.

I found this prayer for her here and I thought I might have that done. But I love the image of her, too. So strong, with a spear in ( Read more... )

Shhhhhh ( Read more... )