I feel absolutely worthless today. I am 19 years old and what have I done? Nothing of any importance. But what can I do? Nothing of any importance really. There are people out there who have actual worth and work hard for what they have and overcome adversity and shit. I have never had to do anything that will make me a better person in the ( Read more... )

I cracked and got a myspace account. It sucks so don't laugh at me you computer savvy people.

I smell like dog. I love my job.

I'm starting to get bored with summer.

So yesterday I went to a family reunion with Michael and it was really fun. Well...his immediate family is fun. It was the first time that I have felt 100% comfortable with them. We played games and talked about lots of fun stuff and I really enjoyed myself (even though I got a migraine right before Mass ( Read more... )

I am so confused about everything right now. It seems as if everything I do is wrong but right at the same time. I'm doing the best I can, but it's never good enough. Everything I do to help, hurts. I am a genuine person, but I feel fake. Maybe I'm a genuinely fake person. I care so much that I have to be apathetic to cope. I love.

Sigh....today has been a lot better than the last three weeks. The last three weeks have sucked ( Read more... )

I should stop trying to have visions. When I do, they never work out for me. Is it possible to be a great visionary but a horrible follow througher? I guess the only way to be recognized as a great visionary is to back the visions up with kick-ass actions, eh? Ah well, such is life.

So...I'm back from vacation. It wasn't anything spectacular I suppose but since it was only like my third actual vacation, I can't complain. I really need to take a vacation from thinking. Unfortunatly that won't happen anytime soon. Ah well, what can you do?

Why can't I ever have a good day? All of my days start out fine. Then I end up having a problem and not your run of the mill, easy to handle problem. It can never be something that is easily solved and for the most part it has to be put off until "later." I never fix anything. I have so many problems spinning around me right now that I think I ( Read more... )

So, I'm a complusive checker of things to be checked and I'm driving myself nuts. I know that no one has e-mailed since the last time I checked it, but I can't help looking. It's going to be a long summer. I need to stop checking ( Read more... )

I'm officially done with school. Finals could not have gone any worse. Then, I decided to drown my sorrows by shotgunning a bottle of frappuccino. I'm shaking. Bye bye 4.0. You've been very good to me. I'll miss you.