Okay . . . so because she is in the process of moving, she is not on aim or anything very often.  I decided that I should go ahead and tell her before i talked myself out of it.  Which in hindsight, may not have been the best way to go about it . . . but oh well, done is done.

So this was her response: "i uh.....wow andrew. that was really deep, ( Read more... )

Not really sure where to begin this, because my thoughts seem to keep jumping back and forth from one topic to the next and somewhat randomly, so i will try to write this down in a somewhat organized manner, then hopefully be able to get some sleep ( Read more... )

It has been over two years since i've even set eyes on this journal . . . so much has gone on since then i don't even know where to start . . . i'm positive no-one ever looks at this anymore, so maybe i will just use it to write down some thoughts every now and then.

Wonder which way is the most interesting way to commit suicide?

Okay, I very rarely remember dreams. I remembered one on October 17th, and then tonight i woke up at like 11:30 because of the phone, and I remembered another one. Those are the only dreams that I have remembered lately. Why the hell are they about the same girl? A girl that I cannot and willnot go out with right now. But that i've wanted to ( Read more... )

Hunter, Heather, Sei'ne, Rose, Chesh, Choco Jess and Angie you guys don't know how much you mean to me. You don't know what you have done for me, and for that I am grateful. If any of you ever need anything, now matter how big or small, do not hesitate to ask. I will do what I can ( Read more... )

I feel so loved.

Yay for my bi-polar self. Not depressed at the moment, getting really hyper when i should be going to bed.

Why can I never be satisfied? Not in a perfectionist sort of way, not really. No matter what i have, i always find something that isn't right or something that i would like to change. I then concentrate on that and loose sight of whats going right ( Read more... )

Okay, it appears that i'm going to start updating this journal again on a bad note, but such is life. I am once again on a downward spiral in my life. I have been given alot of thought to this, and after much examination and discussion I have determined that just like everyone else I go through periods of good and bad times, and that the good ( Read more... )