Just as I started to get nice a mellow.... my "whenever the hell its feels like it" has arrived.... well I suppose at least it didn't make a mess of the bed from what I can tell. One can live in hope its just not too bad this time around....

I forgot to mention last time that we now have a new pet dog! Shaman & Brian gave Scott a gift basked ( Read more... )

So, this Saturday was Scotts party thing. It was OK, I can't say I had fun, but I can't say I had a bad time. I got a bit drunk and sat around all night talking to people. I got close to decking Patricia, who took it upon herself to bug me about not having, or wanting a job AGAIN, I wish she would get it in her head to leave me be. Depression's a ( Read more... )

Well, I'm almost back where I was about 2 years ago, trying to summon up the courage to see a doctor and tell a doctor that I'm Depressed and I really need help. I can't work out what I'm scared of, because even if they put me on meds, or send me to a shrink, or tell me its all in my head and I have to snap outta it, its gotta help .... right?

I ( Read more... )

It seems that after everytime I post a huge 'doom and gloom, I want to die post' something always happens that is good, that proves my life isn't all that crappy and it is in my head. Of course that said, I need to see another doctor, I'm in America the land of 'Take a pill and make it better' so maybe I can find one that will help me and not tell ( Read more... )

Yesterday I told Scott that I was so fucking depressed, of course now its his fault and he wants to fix it.... fuck ( Read more... )

Well no snow, but its frikken freezing Mr Bigglesworth, thank goodness for reverse cycle heating. Its been like 0 and less for about a week now, the sun comes out but its still cold. Right now its -6 and its 8 in the morning. Have no idea when/if its gonna snow, since I always seem to miss the weather on the free to air channels and I don't have a ( Read more... )

I have been informed there is a chance of SNOW on the weekend.... SNOW!!! The wierd thing is, there was frost this morning, still visible at 8.30am and I'm in bed SWEATING... only had one blanket on, I had to get up it was so hot. So at least I know I can keep warm.... but snow.....

guess I will have to wait and see

Before we left, everyone was "Oh what a Great Adventure" and bullshit about moving. Well apparently its been 7 weeks and the only 'adventure' was probably Brisbane, the first 6 hours of the flight and arriving in Seattle. I think a trip like this is only an adventure when its just that, a trip. But this isn't a trip, this is our lives for at least ( Read more... )

I don't know if its Seasonal depression or I just really do hate it here. I want to go home, not to Adelaide in particular but back to Australia. I want to fight with Scott about who's parents we are visiting for Christmas and bitch about how hot it is..... here its just dreary and cold and so lonely. At least back home I could log on WoW and ( Read more... )

Actually I have had the internet... pretty much the whole time... but been advoiding LJ cuz I didn't want to have to read all those posts.... cuz I'm like miles behind on everyones posts and then I would like want to comment on really old posts and it would make me seem more crazy than I really am... so I didn't read em.... go me!

So firstly, 13 ( Read more... )