Well now I have started to have dreams about America. That its kinda disturbing cuz it means that untill we go, I'm probably going to be having some really werid messed up dreams.

Im trapped somewhere between excited & terrified. I try not to think about it too much because my head starts to swirl and I feel like I might be sick. I have come far ( Read more... )

So Scotts gone for 2 weeks... AGAIN..... they better not try to pull this crap when we are in Seattle. So I'm home all alone..... trying not to freak out... its not working real well.

First freak out, I realise that I have to do all the washing thats been piling up... and I mean really piling up.... I am crap at washing so I always get behind. So ( Read more... )

I'm starting to feel like Miranda on Sex in the City where she finds out shes preggers and everyone but her is all "OMG A BABY" and she then has to fake being happy so ppl will just leave her the hell alone. I'm at that stage about Seattle, EVERYONE, Including Scott are all "OMG AREN'T YOU EXCITED??" I mean what am I supposed to do? Dance around ( Read more... )

Men..... psh.....

NOW, we are not having an inspection till we leave, but the house has to be in some kind of order cuz the real estate ppl have decided that they gonna start to show ppl through the house.... I don't know whats worse, although everyone but be is like "don't stress, the house doesn't have to be perfect" although its has to be clean ( Read more... )

So dun dun DUNNNNNN - Rent Inspection notice.... of course Scott is all "fuck it, they can just live with it" he of course is not here when they come and make me feel bad about every tiny little detail, I can't understand why he cant get it though his thick skull the amount of anxiety I go through with these things, he KNOW, I have told him and ( Read more... )

Complete wierdness today.... for some reason while watching Maury Povich... "whos your baby's daddy bitch"  I for some reason really felt like I would like to contact my bilogical dad, hopefully just brought on by the insanity that has developed from being alone. I have hardly ever thought of the guy and have always said I don't care about him, I ( Read more... )

Ugh, I think this has been the longest 3 weeks of my life... well apparently its 2 1/2 half but screw that. Scott's still not home to Friday, dammit it seems so long! Maybe if I hadn't got all crazy just after he left it wouldn't be so bad, IDK, but I just want him home now.

The weather has been frustrating the HELL outta me, and I have been ( Read more... )

So, Scott goes away and not even one day before I loose it, I basically let all my insecurities and cray thoughts out loose in a letter to Scott, then me being as stupid as I am, I sent it to him.... I wanted it back right after I clicked send.

I freaked out because , no reply for quite a while, just a cypric txt that kinda made me think he thinks ( Read more... )

Scott got his new PC on the weekend :) tax return time is always the best :) He got the connector for a dual monitor somewhere in everything he got, so now I have dual monitors, as I write this, I am playing WOW on my main screen and typing this while I wait for my Priest to make a ton of cloth bolts.... sweet. Its taking a bit of getting used to, ( Read more... )

Today was strange....

First off, I wasn't woken by Jedi whining for food, at first I thought it must be very early, but it wasn't for some weird magic reason, he was quiet OR he was whining and I slept through it and he gave up. Then the cat ran out the backdoor.... weird. Anyway she must of ran down the side of the house and over the fence, ( Read more... )