i found out a while ago that my mother and brother buried my fathers ashes behind my back in 2007 when i was in mexico and never told me.

i found out yesterday that they never put a headstone on his grave.

i dont know how i am ever going to forgive them.

my life is kinda of laughable right now, with me sleeping till noon, mooching off my mom, not having a job, etc ( Read more... )

last night i dreamed that brads (ex)girlfriend reva was sending him sex toys in the mail and i was intercepting them and using them. one of them was a vibrator that was controlled by an xbox controller, lol. so, so typical. then i somehow ran into her in an airport and she was like really really mad at me and tried to give me a bonecrushing ( Read more... )

it has been 11 fucking months. i am supposed to be over him. this is supposed to be fucking done.

and i cant stop fucking crying right now. it has been a long damned time since i cried over this shit. a long, long, damned time.

Vale mucho, un gran amor
Que en el perdón ha crecido
Hoy se que el llanto sirvió
Para reforzar el nido
Olvidemos el pasado
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So even though its now a week late i guess i do need to say something about the wedding. it was a lot of fun but an extremely exhausting four day affair. lots of drinking and playing dress up-- cant object. oh, and something i have noticed is that almost everyone i met in and around the lancaster area has a good handshake which is a very good thing ( Read more... )

i broke up with henry on saturday in a sort of bad way. i had really hoped it would go over without a hitch but it ended up being a sort of nasty conversation at midnight which resulted in me taking the fish and leaving and both of us being really pissed off and upset. was way more dramatic than i had hoped for ( Read more... )

whats worse? an ex boyfriend who falls off the face of the earth, never to speak to you ever, ever again, or one who lingers on and is still sort of around-- accessible, but still around to remind you of the past every day?

me: 10:08:02 PM: i might run away to greece to be an au pair
 rob:  10:08:19 PM: wow really
 rob 10:08:24 PM: thats a nanny
 rob 10:08:28 PM: not a prostitute
 rob 10:08:32 PM: right?

i had the most terrifying asthma attack of my life on saturday night. i couldnt breathe and i was gasping and wheezing, scared shitless and crying my eyes out. henry had to rush me home because i had changed my bag that very morning and didnt have my rescue inhaler on me and then sean came with his nebulizer. it was terrifying and i felt dizzy and ( Read more... )

my graduation was pretty much a mess as i have already mentioned that i thought it would be. i dont really even want to rehash any of the details because i just dont even want to think about them ( Read more... )