I feel really anxious at the moment, i have this horrible butterfly feeling in my stomch. My parent's are fighting, and they don't usually fight but when they do it's pretty horrible. Mum just lost it last night, and for good reason i might add, but it was just a huge explosion at 11pm and there is so much tension in this house right now. normally ( Read more... )

Why 2004 was the best year of my life ( Read more... )

i feel so much right now that ultimately i feel overwhelmed with the sense that i have to cope. and i can't cope. i feel like i am going to burst every waking second. i want to stop this so much because i feel so much pain and hurt but i can't let go because i don't want to. it doesn't feel right to deny your love for someone. it doesn't make sense ( Read more... )

I've finished uni now and i'm already bored. I spent three days last week just sitting at home, sorta half studying for my exam that happened yesterday on friday, sorta moping and doing other meaningless things. i have this inability to keep myself occupied when i'm at home, i just end up getting bored. i feel like something else beckons but i don' ( Read more... )

I feel so lazy. I'm not at all motivated to do any work for uni. it's depressing cos i keep thinking that i should have done something these holidays but i didn't and now i know that i'm going to be overwhelmed completing everything all at once because i haven't left enough time for it all. and i;ve got too many creative subjects this semester. I ( Read more... )

SO i couldn't get many mates to come to Flipside, of course Jacinta came and so did Damien, he really makes an effort to try new things and even though he didn't know any of my other friends he still made an effort and enjoyed himself. One of my other mates was there, Vanessa, who also liked good music and a uni friend, Simon, came with his ( Read more... )

Last night, while my parents were fighting, Damien came to my front door. He went away with some mates to this country town near Mildura for a couple of nights. And i think he really missed me cos on his way home he dropped by to see what we were going to do today, even though he could have just called. and when i opened the door he gave me a big ( Read more... )

yesterday i had a pretty bad day. i got to the radio station to do my show and i couldn't find my cd's anywhere. well i started stressing didn't i. my cd's mean everything to me. luckily i found them in one of the computer labs i was in at uni, i must have left it there when i was searching for somehting in my bag. anyway, that meant that i had to ( Read more... )

so the snow has become a reality for me. me and damien spent so long looking for a place, problem was that we sorta left it a bit long and all the good stuff was gone. in fact the only place left was offering two rooms, with 6 people to each room and bunk beds only. so basically one big room and a bathroom, no privacy no kitchen and no space. ( Read more... )

so damien wants to organise a trip to the snow. he's been talking about for about two months now, wanting to do it between uni semesters. and the time has come. so he's getting numbers and looking for deals because people always complain about money and stuff. he's so enthusiastic about it and i'm not sharing the enthusiasm because of one thing: ( Read more... )