I can't believe this. My heart is fucking breaking. It feels like it's not fair but I guess it is. We weren't supposed to end up like this. I'm fighting the tears but I don't know how much longer I can last. I'm tired of thinking of you when I try so hard to get over you.

It really is over. Part of me can't believe it. I texted Nick asking for him to tell you to call me and no response. I thought I was ready but sometimes I think i'm not. You were my best friend, like truly, my best friend. I feel so alone and I yearn for you and I wake up thinking of you but I know in the long run, this will fade and it'll be for ( Read more... )

Today has been kinda strange. I feel like i'm moving forward and moving to a better place in my life but I feel like i'm supposed to feel guilty about everything that's happening. I finally did what had to be done. It wasn't easy and it's not what I wanted but my dad put me in my place about things the other night and it really woke me up. I can't ( Read more... )

All I can keep saying in my head is how could you do this to me? How you could you do this to me? I was almost ready to start over with you. You were the one person I trusted most, you were the person who never lied to me, the person (even though we broke up) who loved ALL of me, for me. Now, I don't even know you at all. I've seen how immature you ( Read more... )

Kaley left for Los Angeles today. I have never had a friend be so loyal and honest with me and I can't believe she's leaving me for good. She'll be home at Christmas and shit but it won't be the same. I'm glad she's going through with her dream though. She got accepted to AMDA. I'm so proud of her:) It'll just be hard without her ( Read more... )

GODDAMN. It's 3am and I have to be at work at 8am. I hate being an insomniac ( Read more... )

 Sometimes I really feel like i'm a bad person. Chris will text me and it'll make me happy and I genuinely like him and he's super sweet and is way out going like I am but i'm not over the Caleb situation. I know i'll eventually get over it or we'll end up back together down the road. Maybe I should just put all of this bullshit behind me and just ( Read more... )

 It's funny how one bit of news can change your day entirely. I just found out that my friend Zena just got married. Like out of fucking no where and she didn't even fucking tell me. Since we've been friends, she's never wanted to be married and now she is. God, I didn't realize how bitter I was and how NOT over this Caleb situation I really am. I ( Read more... )

I still can't believe that's it so over and done with. I don't even know where to begin but I have to get this out of me.

2 Thursdays ago (whatever date that is), I went out with some friends to the bar. Caleb had to work really early so he didn't come. My friend Michael dropped me off around 2:15ish at the apartment. Mind you Caleb had an issue ( Read more... )

Yeah so fuck him. Being called a CUNT and being thrown out of your own apartment at 3:30am is fucking ridiculous. I wish him the worst. The one time I didn't do anything wrong in the relationship, he got psycho. Going through my phone, obsessing over bullshit, too all over me, punching walls, throwing things...FUCK THAT. I can do so much better ( Read more... )