see, if i just sit here and think to myself, i cry. cuz all i can think about is missing him. so i ramble on to other random internet people on aim and icq. some tell me to fight for our love, others tell me to dump him immediately. i don't have what it takes to dump him, btw. i'm gonna sit here like the pathetic scum i am and wait for him to ditch ( Read more... )

i'm not a perfect person ( Read more... )

hi i would like to update again ( Read more... )

oh man i really shouldnt have told laila to come over at 9am. i want to sleep all day. who cares about all that shit i was supposed to do? i'd have to take transit today anyway and that sucks ass ( Read more... )

oh i forgot to mention... this morning i woke up with a cold sore... oh no sorry make that TWO cold sores!!!! YES TWO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TWOOOOOOO what the fuck. i guess it's a good thing i didn't wake up next to joshua after all lol ( Read more... )

i will go through today ( Read more... )

sigh ( Read more... )

( jetaime )

i don't think i can take it anymore. i now have two options:

option one: sell all my cds, my snowbard, etc, take out the $2000 canadian i have from working last summer, and buy a one-way ticket to tahiti. there i will apply for a job at a convinience store or as a hotel maid or as a waitress and work and live there for the rest of my life. if no ( Read more... )

he still loves meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

thank god i didn't send that e-mail