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insight
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i need a hobby:
Make a list of a dozen free fun things to do in your area, and make plans to do all of them with friends or family. This is a great time to investigate (cheap!) hobbies that you've always wanted to get into. Canning! Needlepoint! Nunchucks! Learning Sanskrit! Even outside of college, and even without a job (for now), you can still ( Read more... ) -
reframing
i remember when i started the project, which will not be named, no one thought that we were ever going to finish. my motivations throughout were somewhat flimsy and flaky. all i know i knew at the beginning was that i was embarking on something great, something bigger than myself.
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keeping you a secret
julie anne peters, you are an inspiration. even now, 5 years later after first having read "keeping you a secret" the story is so relevant to me. there are some kinks in the issues it addresses because of what i've learned about the queer community in davis over the years, but all the feelings, thoughts, insecurities, and joys she described were on ( Read more... ) -
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Last night Jareb told me I made her happy. I don't know if it was the sake bombs or the small amount of shampoo I had but immediately following that I ran to the kitchen to grab a cup of water. Chugged a cup then I walked toward the living room. Next thing I know, I am on the kitchen floor and feel like my head just got hit by a sack of bricks. I ( Read more... ) -
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i still don't know where i'm headed. i'm scared that things are going to change. enter non-action. must be calm like o'sensei. i think i should meditate. -
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i want to go somewhere and get lost. it would be good times! the end of this project is in sight. i can take the money and run. i'm excited. psht. loans. those are going to be there for a while, but my free time won't. as soon as i do this, i'll find a job... does that sound like a plan? i think so. -
Not too shabby Sunday
Learned to play a new song. Watched red dragon which wasn't too gory/freaky. Lounged all day. 'twas a nice change of pace.
My car wouldn't start yesterday morning but it surprisingly did not ruin my weekend... Victory is mines! -
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The grading station smells like shit. There are flies everywhere. The workers do their job under the shade of a shitty shed. Porta-potties and hand washing stations. Rotten tomato smell that sticks to you long after you've left. My worst worries have become a reality. One of the workers came up to me and said, "don't take away our jobs" after we ( Read more... ) -
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The grading station smells like shit. There are flies everywhere. The workers do their job under the shade of a shitty shed. Porta-potties and hand washing stations. Rotten tomato smell that sticks to you long after you've left. My worst worries have become a reality. One of the workers came up to me and said, "don't take away our jobs" after we ( Read more... )