You know what songs make me nervous? What kind of songs I should *not* be listening to when I'm feeling anxious and don't need to feel any more anxious than I already am?

Cake's "The Distance" and Eminem's "Lose Yourself".

So why am I listening to The Distance Now?

Beats me.

I really think I'm going to pass out from anxiety.

Why did I have a bite of the baguette?!!!

I keep having these dreams, which isn't a good thing. I mean, the dreams are positive things, or at least, they should be, but not if they're only setting me up for disappointment, which I'm afraid is going to happen, as it always does. We'll just communicate a bit, then someone stops, and there it is, it ends. It's very disappointing. It's always ( Read more... )

The thing is... if I were asked whether I regret ever getting into this, I would say, I think, no.

Oh fuck, why am I even online at this time of the night (..morning?) waiting for an email that will never come.

If I'm not driving myself crazy then I honestly don't know what I'm doing.