my life, summed up:

last night i made a promise to myself with leanna's support that i would stop badmouthing my friends and not let other people bad mouth them in my presence. this morning i defended abigail when skye trashed her and this afternoon i stopped abigail from trashing skye. now they are both mad at me.

uhhhhhhhhghhhhhhhhhhghhhhhhhhh............

i so almost didnt even turn my computer on because ferry internet costs moolah. but then i did and i have wireless. for some reason. free shit. good shit. wtf is happening?

aaaaaaaaaand im fine. except i might have bipolar disorder. wtf is wrong with me? whatever. i might delete those entries.

you know whats really fucked up? read my two entries previous to this one together. big fucking 180. i hate that my brain is even capable of that.

i reeeally dont want to go home.im starting to freak out a little bit. you are all very important to me, its true, and i am excited to see you, but these people are important to me too. i feel happier and more comfortable and fulfilled here than i have anywhere else, ever. and i seriously dont want to deal with being a child of divorced parents. ( Read more... )

i just went and looked at every picture of me on facebook and then webbed out and looked at all the old albums. theres some real good shit back there. i got a facebook in 2005. having that kind of retrospective makes one feel very nostalgic.

sick. very sick.

December 17 2008 ( Read more... )

okay look: i dont know what any of this shit means. i dont do signals. or i do, but you arent putting any clear ones out. raaaa ( Read more... )