well its that time a year agian...winter...it always seems to bring everyone down. it sucks. i just wish i could get up and move out of this place, somewhere warm, but i cant. Centrals athletic training program is a really good one and it would be stupid of me to push my education back so much just cause i want to move. maybe its cause i still dont ( Read more... )

well its been a while since i wrote. i guess im pretty bored right now. i kinda want to go to sleep but jill is here studying but that doesnt bother me cause i can just write in this thing. well im not going to recap everything that has happened to me since i wrote last cause that would not take up a lot of space and thats just sad. well today i ( Read more... )

well it looks like its gonna storm outside which isnt such a bad thing cause i like storms and andy, kevin and sara wanted to go out on my boat when i came home and im too tired to do so and i feel really fat and theres no way htat i want andy and kevin to see me like that. i was supposed to help my dad take the jetski out casue its broken but i ( Read more... )

well i just realized even more how much of an impatient person i am. i just tryed to leave a message in corns journal but it took like 5 secondds so i stopped. i just wish i wasnt so impatient. it would make a lot of things less complicated ( Read more... )

i have no privatcy at all anymore. my mom searches through my car, my room, and everything else that i own. i brought it up to her and she said that if i want her not to do that then i have to get a better job and move out. i really shouldnt have to feel this way. im 19, she shouldnt still be going through all of my shit. if i had enough money i ( Read more... )

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Well its been a while since i wrote. im not going to recap cause i really am just too lazy. yesterday was fun. me katie betz and bob went out on my paddleboat and road to the island. i got pretty drunk but that wasnt why it was so fun. it started raining while we were at the island and we had to sit underneath the trees. it felt like we were ( Read more... )

i dont even know how to start this entry. i really screwed up this weekend. like really bad. probably the most i have screwed up in a while and i screw up a lot. i guess i have just realized how much my drinking has affected my life, in a bad way. im decided im going to try to cut back. i know its gonna be hard but im gonna try really hard. i ( Read more... )

im kinda excited right now and its for no reason at all....i actually feel pathetic for feeling excited. it might be the vodka that im drinking by myself cause i have no friends...actually im hanging out with nick later but whatever. but anyways im feeling excited cause a guy that i met up north this weekend left a note on facebook saying he wanted ( Read more... )

Well yesterday i had a little scare. i was driving home from cleaning my car and brian was driving down the road on his 4wheeler. i stoped and he was like my dads on the lake and his boat ran out of gas and his sugar is getting low(his dad has diabetes). i was pretty scard cause brian has told me stories about finding his dad passed out on the ( Read more... )