so i have a dilemma. there is this guy Keion who has recently told me that he likes me alot. i haven't seen him a little while, but we have been talking over myspace. he keeps telling me how cute i am and how much i make him laugh. i have a boyfriend though. and i am so very much in love with him. he means the world to me and i would never dare do ( Read more... )

Contemplating...... i have no idea what i am abou to say. i feel so far away from everybody. So Katie's b-day party. yeah that isn't ever happening again. i felt so uncomfortable and i felt so ut of place. At Jason's house last night, i felt so out of place. i'm done. i'll never fit in i don't want to. i hate my life and i hate the way i am. i ( Read more... )

ya know, i find it interesting how one man can take your breathe away and then break your heart, and then try to put it back together. maybe it's just me, but thats how i feel most of the time. i'm so in love but scared to be hurt again. these last few days have been hard. i felt like breaking down and just letting go of him, but i didn't. ( Read more... )

so i've been really thinking about my life and what i want to do with it. i feel so empty and scared because there are so many possible things i could do with my life after i get out of high school. i really want to be with jason. we were discussing maybe getting engaged after i get out of high school and waiting for awhile before we thought about ( Read more... )

this week hasn't been the greatest for me, and the weird thing is i can't figure out why. i know that i have a million people around me that care, but i can't help but feeling empty like something is missing. was giving my virginity up a good thing? sex is addicting and i realize now that i'm not whole without it. wat is wrong with me? my whole ( Read more... )

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so tomorrow is the parade. not really looking forward to standing out in the cold ( Read more... )

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so i was really thinking about my relationship with jason last night. an i'm so scared when he graduates because i am pretty much assuming it will be over between us. i love him so much and i don't want to lose him, but i'm not sure i have much of a choice in this. he wants to last forever, but i'm not sure that it will. there are too many things ( Read more... )