Words won't ever describe how happy i've been. I honestly never want to leave. I'm home.

The truth is that down to the core of it all, all of it has been about the fact that everything about change scared the shit out of me. 
But now that I've actually experienced it for the best, loved it, and realized all the mistakes that I've learned by trying to protect myself, I can stop pretending that it was different. 
I knew it, too. It seemed ( Read more... )

Whoever, or whatever, is up there has a sick sense of humor. You really do.
Why is it that when I don't want to deal with something you just have the knack of bringing it right back around? It's almost to the point of funny/
Maybe it's a sign, maybe it's a test, and i'll do my best, but all i'm trying to say is that it realllllllly feels like ( Read more... )

 life backfires on me. it's just a fact. 
turns out we aren't going to NYC, probably a good thing because i'm not spending money but whatever. I'm kinda pissed, I reallllly want to peace. I'll just have to meet up with the girls in Boston or something. GET ME OUT OF HERE
all and all it hasn't been terrible, just unbelievably uneventful. work is fine ( Read more... )

nobody likes repetition when it is something you were doing your hardest to avoid.
as of right now there's nothing i can do, atleast because i'm here. 
and i'm keeping things mellow. but that dosen't mean i won't do everything i can to change what I can.
and what happens, happens. i can live with that.

i'm starting working again asap, which is good in ( Read more... )

 Okay so I have a 3.6 GPA, made deans list and I'm pretty damn proud of myself for now. When I work my ass off and do that makes me feel good. It also makes me mad when people that have never even been to Amherst, heard about the college, or know any statistics get this reputation that it's bad school, just because of the old party school rep. Not ( Read more... )

You start to notice who is worth it and who isn't when you will go around the world for them and nobody seems to be willing to do it back. Especially if it goes out of their way. 
I can't stand the rudeness and blindness, i'm through.

 I DON'T WANT TO GO
It's so empty in here. I'm glad work is over but I'm going to miss it so much. 
I wish we could stay and no work could be done
I don't want to go home
i'll be relaxed and it'll be fun for like a month
but my god I'm going to miss so many people
these past 5 months have been AMAZING.
ughh. I hope this summer is amazing too.
I'm going to ( Read more... )

I can't wait for school to be over, i'm so sick of work.
I'm so excited to go back home and relax.
I'm happier that I have my old job and a new one. I hope I get this third one, too.
I'm happy to go to the beach, I'm happy that this summer will be relaxing so I can see where I stand on life.
I want to do so many fun things that don't cost money
Atleast ( Read more... )

 I'm extremely glad i'm back. Missed home, can't wait for the summer, but I know I belong here and I know I made true friends here. I'm so glad that I found the right people, and I think when we are next year in the right area and can meet even better people it will be fabulous ( Read more... )