how do you make a decision when you can't make up your mind.

[batgirl666]

so as i sit here i have alot going thru my head. it's racing and it doesn't seem to stop. first of all i had a badass time at the shinedown concert...even tho 3doors down sucked balls and we won't go there with alterbridge...needless to say they are the new creed...and the suck just as hard. anyway we were comming home from the concert when jez

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[krazedsuz]

whatever your decision, as ive told you time and time again, i will support you. you know that i too cant wait to go out there. i need to start a new life for myself and that city seems like a great opportunity for me. for the moment, i have too many things to tie up and too many decisions to make to make a move right now. i want to pack up and say, "you ready?" but something in me tells me im still needed here for a little while longer. i dont want to take the time apart, but we both know that its something that needs to be done. we've both become a little too dependant on each other being there and while ive always been a co-dependant person, i want to for once be completely on my own. i need to test myself and you need to go back to the old you. being able to say fuck you to everyone and do your own thing. i know that no matter what happens you will always worry about where i am and what im doing and if im okay, but i will be the same for you and these are things that will always plague both our minds even if we continue to live

[batgirl666]

i know...its just hard making this big of a decision...the last time i did it i thought that i had severed enough ties and lost enough feelings to say fuck it to everything and leave...now i have these things here that i care alot about and don't know if i can leave them behind. i've never let myself get attatched to anything but new orleans but that all changed when i met you and was able to reconnect to those things that i thought i lost when i moved out there. i know what i have to do but its just hard doing it. worrying that things won't work out...i'm usually not like that but when i made that pact to myself not to return without everything set in stone and lined up it kind of ingrained itself on my mind and my heart. still how can i know unless i do go out there and set shit up. i'm scared. scared that i'll fail...that i have it all wrong..or getting my hopes up when its not my time. tho the signs are there its a big chance. i'm willing to take it full steam ahead. just don't know if i can do it. one of the things that you told