i do not know what has been happening to me. last night driving in between cities that i did not know i felt this sense of perfect. like i was finally ready to be alive. the calmest i can ever remember feeling. as i drove closer and closer to the place i live in the dread became so unbearable i couldn't sleep. when i woke up i tried to write a ( Read more... )

i was trying to pack a bunch of things up and realized that i had things at your house so my mom told me to go over there and get them. when i got there i walked into your day room and there were chairs everywhere and i could hear a lot of people talking and i felt so happy to know that you seemed to be doing good. i walked into the kitchen and ( Read more... )

it is funny because i like you better. i like the time i spend with you better, i like the way you make me feel better, i like who you are better. but this isn't about comparisons or about what i can or can not have. it is about the differences in the basis of our relationships. one is time and one is want and i am not sure which is a more ( Read more... )

YOU DON'T LOVE ME AND THAT IS OKAY.

he tells me i look too smart because i wear ribbons in my hair so he licks his hands and gives me a fake tattoo.

i went out to dinner with my sister and my mom today. sometimes, in a more positive than negative way, i tell myself i will never end up like them. it's not even what they do or don't have, because there lives aren't completly meaningless obviously, it is just it is not what i want for myself. my sister disapoints me in some ways. i know she ( Read more... )

I remember that her body and the way she held ( Read more... )

if i had to explain it.
i wouldn't know where to start,
it's like you're falling in love
while
i
just fall apart.