i feel so lonely. everyone's recovering, not that i'm not happy for them or anything, it's just I'm still here. but this time with no one there to care.

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currently 113.. probably period weight. i just want to be under 110. i need it. just so i know i can do something successfully. so far 100 cal oatmeal and 50 cal coffee. i think i just want to eat fruit the rest of the day. an apple at 4:30 and a banana at 7:00. i can manage that.

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Ten random facts about yourself.

10. I don't like being tan, i use sunblock when i'm in the sun
9. I'm still in love with my ex-boyfriend
8. I'm not judge-mental of others
7. I'm obsessed with counting every calorie
6. I don't have a best friend, although i'd like one
5. I hold onto memories i wish i could forget
4. I sleep with my stuffed animal every ( Read more... )

 113.8 - finally back down.
gotta be 107 by nov 15. that'd make my birthday perfect.
especially since i plan to wear tight jeans a shirt that comes up to my bellybutton..