Well, would you look at that. Jen posted on here recently and seems so sad... so depressed. There she goes, looking for more pity. She won't get it from me, though. Not anymore ( Read more... )

I'm really starting to get tired of this shit. We've gone around and around and around on this fucking merry-go-round, each time the tempo picking up pace until I feel like I'm ready to hurl. "She loves me! She doesn't love me... She loves me! She doesn't love me... She loves me!" etc. etc., ad infinitum and naeseum. It's not like its even ( Read more... )

Jen didn't get to stay with me last night. The cops showed up at her house yesterday to arrest her roommate for selling pot. She didn't want the police to show up to question her and think she had skipped town or something. I can understand that, but I wanted to tell her just to leave some contact information for them to reach her at my house. ( Read more... )

I'm an idiot, it's true. But I suppose being a male of the species that comes with the territory. I had hoped I would be above such baser emotions and instincts, but it seems to be inbreed into our genetic material. There doesn't seem to be anyway to escape the ancestral coding bored deep into each of our beings. I will make stupid decisions ( Read more... )

I can feel the darkness ( Read more... )

Things are going extremely well beween the two of us. I was a little shocked when her friend Sarah said that if I tried anything she would kill me. A little late for that kind of warning, don't ya think? But I know Sarah is just joking with me and being protective of her best friend, which I can respect. But I have no intention of hurting Jen ( Read more... )

Looking at my funding, I've come to realize that I won't be able to go to the upcoming Atlanta Kotei. For those of you not in the know, Kotei are large regional tournaments for a card game named Legend of the Five Rings. I decided about three weeks ago that this event would be the last time I would play. I've grown bored with the game and it ( Read more... )

What a weekend! That went way better than I even expected. I'm so extactic with joy right now I can barely contain myself. I feel a little bad for my brother, though. He's so screwed up right now he can barely tell up from down, but I'm not sure how to help him other than be there for him ( Read more... )

I felt absolutely terrible the other day after writing that journal entry. I began to think about that night, and it struck me that I might have purposely gotten her drunk and instigated what had happened. I might have taken advantage of her, and that was about to kill me. I started to throw up in disgust and shame of myself ( Read more... )

I'm really not sure what to do anymore. Yesterday I went to a bachelor party for my friend Pete, which was a lot of fun. It was a rather tame bachelor party, but still there was copious amounts of beer and many stories to be had. The alcohol was really starting to clear my head, it seemed as if I had come to terms with all the problems in my ( Read more... )