Well the Anniversary is coming up, and those who know me know what that means...one week today and it'll be 2 years..plus Nov. 19 is (was) my Mom's birthday..so naturally I'm nat a big fan of November, and I tend to stay away from people...and it's getting real cold here..real lonely too..' no money-no fun..we wanna Holiday in the Sun".. This is ( Read more... )

You love destruction..that's your thing..bye take it all

there's a lot of days I want to put a bullet in my brain..but it's good that I don't own a gun..Only 8 years to go till I'm happy and can do likewise for someone else,cause I don't have a pot to piss in, and I have nothing to attract the fairer sex, and all that is..is done..I don't wanna invest the time or anything cause I'm damaged goods and good ( Read more... )

Quite often, I'll either be flipping through the channels, or the radio, and every now and then I'll see a show, or hear a song that we used to enjoy or like or always watch or listen to together.Well this happened again tonight..I was flipping on the TV about 9, and saw the new Big Brother..we had watched it religiously the last two times it had ( Read more... )

No matter what...it will never be right..and I did not deserve what she has done and still does to me

well..had a fucked up nite last nite...our hotel won an award a couple months back from the city's Chamber of Commerce for Best Restaurant..so they threw us a little shindig..BOWLING and FREE BOOZE..I've never bowled before..but I have drank before..I must have put back 12(!) beers, a couple of Long Islands..and 3 shots of Goldschlagger.I was so ( Read more... )

The lonliness is killing me....I want her touch and her to look me in the eyes with HER beautiful eyes, and tell me it's gonna be all rite...