I'm hurting. I may not be right but it certainly feels like it. It finally came, the day I would lose some part of my past at last. I know i wanted to stop but now I know it will never happen again. The part I always thought I had. Now I am desperately searching for a answer.

I can't do anything but stand aside and let it be. Letting go is a big ( Read more... )

            Strange things… have been happening to me today what can I say but… it’s funny.

Today wasn’t like my normal work day were I go to work for about two hours then leave to pick up my “ darling” mother. Not! , just my mother. And I didn’t spend my lunch hour with friends but I went straight home. Weird! I haven’t done that before. ( Read more... )

What can I say about this past weekend but just plain WEIRD!!!!!!!!!

It all started on Friday when I saw my ex boyfriend, super uncomfortable! L I couldn’t bring myself to talk to him, the idea of me hurting him kept me at a distance. I was a social outcast there I made myself the outsider because he was there. I didn’t want to be there ( Read more... )

        Yesterday was okay until my “SO CALLED” friend wanted to go out and have some fun although her definition of fun is not similar to mine.
        We ended up at place I didn’t want to be, my ex-boyfriend’s neighborhood.. I thought she knew I didn’t want to be there, I rather gone somewhere else or not even gone at all. She wanted to be there ( Read more... )

It’s getting better. For the last several days my life has been a living hell. But yesterday it started to change.
I am finally pleased after being emotionally drained about actually having to take responsibility as an adult with family and financial matters.

Now I found closure with my current ex-boyfriend while trying to find order in my life with ( Read more... )

IT GOT WORSE.FIGHTING WITH MY PARENTS, MY CAR STOPPING IN TRAFFIC, AND ALMOST CRASHING WITH MY SISTER AND BROTHER IN THE CAR.THIS WEEKCAN’T GET ANY WORSE.

YESTERDAY THE CHAPTER ON MY EX-BOYFRIEND CLOSED BUT ON A GOOD NOTE. WE SAID OUR GOODBYES AND SAID EVERYTHING THAT NEEDED TO BE SAID.TEARS WERE SHED AND HEARTS WERE BREAKING; ALTHOUGH , IT NEEDED ( Read more... )

IT GOT WORSE.FIGHTING WITH MY PARENTS, MY CAR STOPPING IN TRAFFIC, AND ALMOST CRASHING WITH MY SISTER AND BROTHER IN THE CAR.THIS WEEKCAN’T GET ANY WORSE.

YESTERDAY THE CHAPTER ON MY EX-BOYFRIEND CLOSED BUT ON A GOOD NOTE. WE SAID OUR GOODBYES AND SAID EVERYTHING THAT NEEDED TO BE SAID.TEARS WERE SHED AND HEARTS WERE BREAKING; ALTHOUGH , IT NEEDED ( Read more... )

TODAY WAS A LAID BACK DAY THAT WASN'T STRESSFUL UNTIL A GHOST OF MY RECENT PAST CAME BACK TO HAUNT ME.WHEN I SPEAK TO THIS GHOST MY FEELINGS GO HAYWIRE. THIS ONE PERSON IS NOT A BAD PERSON BUT NEES SOME GUIDANCE AND I CAN'T BE THERE IF HE PUSHES ME ASIDE.DON'T GET ME WRONG I DO CARE ABOUT HIM BUT I CAN'T BE THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE. WE COME FROM TWO ( Read more... )

CAN MY LIFE GET ANY WORSE .I BROKE MY EX-BOYFRIENDS HEART AND UP SHIT CREEK IN FINANICAL MATTERS.ISN'T LIFE GREAT. NOW WHAT CAN HAPPEN NEXT.

BESIDES THE OBVIOUS YOU CAN SAY I AM HAPPY OR AM I TRYING TO BELIEVE IT.I CAN'T EVEN DEAL WITH THE IDEA OF HURTING MY EX BUT I HAD TO .BECAUSE I KNEW I WOULD STILL HAVE  DUE TO ISSUES THAT GO UNSAID.

I CAN'T ( Read more... )

TODAY WAS LIKE EVERYDAY THIS WEEK FULL OF DISMAY AND CONSTANT FRUSTRATION.MY LIFE WAS JUST LIKE A NORMAL TEENAGER  UNTIL A "PERSON" CAME INTO LIFE. DON'T GET ME WRONG  I DO CARE FOR HIM BUT I CAN'T BE THE GIRLFRIEND ANYMORE. I WANT TO BE THE FRIEND. I COLDN'T SAY THE WORDS THE MEAN ALOT IN A RELATIONSHIP AND COULDN'T EXPRESS THE FEELINGS I HAD. IT ( Read more... )