i just looked at all of these past entries and they are all so sad...lol.. I will try to make this one a little more upbeat. life as of late is fine. i work at school, get paid great for the job that i do. that is truly a wonderful blessing in my life. its very nice to live on my own this summer, but its a little lonely at the same time. to ( Read more... )

So I have spent the last few months just as I have said, "Alive but dead". I am working on getting though it all but it seems virtually impossible.Faith is the most difficult thing for me. I just wanna be with my Grandma and have her protect me. I want to take care of her. I want all the things I have dreamed of doing for and with her to come true ( Read more... )

So.. it has seemingly been forever since I have updated this. Since I have so much has happened. I have had one crazy summer.. dealt with so much, but most difficult was the loss of my Grandma. She died on June 3, at 11 am. A big part of me died then too. I have been so out of it for months. I am kinda lost with myself. I dont really like to do ( Read more... )

SO... since I can remember, all I have really wanted to do was make a lasting and valuable friendship... I failed so many times before taht I almost gave up... but I tried again. Again I failed. I thought that friendship was give and take and that communication was involved but its like anyone who has been my best friend always had other best ( Read more... )

My brother emailed me today..made me cry.. he seemed so sad... but him at the same time.. please pray...for all the soldiers..for peace...and for all the families like mine...longing for a loved one far away ( Read more... )

im just drained i supposed.. the life is just not there... i keep talkin to God... im just waiting... he will help me i know he will...

Well i left this good ol' journal about a month ago to venture home. The break startred out tragically when Michael died. That wasn't cool at all but things got worse. Justin Turner, a guy that I went to school with, died on Christmas Day. Got sadder... the on New Year's Day Keith Cholette died. It was all just so crazy. It was like life flashing ( Read more... )

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This morning at around 6:30, Michael Laarkamp passed away. I have been praying so hard and I know that so many others have too. I feel horrible. I want to give him my life so nobody feels this pain. I can only imagine what his family is going through. I called my brother Warren today. He is Michaels age, and I have no idea what I would do without ( Read more... )

Well...I know it has been a little while since I have last written... dealing with quite a bit lately. Last week of classes are here and finals begin on Monday so... I got a lot on my plate. I went home to see my family this weekend. I was so happy to see them all. James looked great...definately a sight for teary eyes. He said everything I wanted ( Read more... )