i've become a lot less emotional--even less passionate about certain things--which i think is a good thing.  I'm still a little freaked out about marriage, not because i don't have a great girl, but because of what marriage restricts you from doing (i'm not just talking about other girls either!).  I want to be free to do the things I want to do ( Read more... )

It's been 2.5 years. That is crazy.  I halfway expected this site to be shut down... before i get busy  im going to go buy a pack of parliaments.....brb.   back.  mmmhm... tasty.  i've realized that i havent really changed that much since my last post (which is about a month  before me and claire started dating).  still i wonder sometimes what i'm ( Read more... )

If you really want to know about it, these last two years have been the worst two years of my life. i have come to the conclusion that i am indeed 100% completely clueless. think back on what has happened, i can confidently say that nothing good has happened to me. well, let me take that back... things have gone right for me on ocassion, but ( Read more... )

i got the blues.

well it's been awhile. so i saw the greatest show ever last night with a freakin cool gal! but seriously bright eyes kicked ass... the only bad part is im really behind in my work now, and for some reason i thought it would be a good idea to do livejournal instead...

if you dont like me just tell me. dont just ignore me and put me off telling me that all is well and that you do like me. and im not just speaking to one person here, though the latest incident is what prompted me to post this; this has been going on forever with me. it's so stupid and i can honestly say that i dont deserve this because, well i ( Read more... )

well sunday's are full of dread. think about it, unless it's memorial day or labor day weekend you spend all evening sitting around wishing you could relive the weekend-especially when your weekend sucked. which mine did, sorta. the party friday night was ok, until everyone got dramatic and shit. that's what happens when girls show up. ( Read more... )

alright. back to business on ol' livejournal. i know you've all been waiting, oh, wait, no one reads this! but yeah it has been brought to my attention that my old entries were pretty morbid and dark and all that. well i think im a happier person now than i was a few months ago... i dont know i've never been fully happy i dont think, but this is ( Read more... )

i really wish i could sleep. this is getting out of hand... i dont really know how i function during the day off of 5 hours sleep. i feel like shit everyday until around 8PM just in time for me to be getting ready for bed. it's the most frustrating thing in the world. and now i think im getting sick... so i feel like shit and i cant sleep, and ( Read more... )

it's always the last day of summer and im left out in the cold with no door to get back in...