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[bchgrl315]

"Well cause you're not normal. You're special. You really need to come to terms with who you are. I think you're an awesome person. If people can't accept you then fuck em. Thats the way I see it. If we were all normal then life would seriously be boring. You need to be proud of who you are no matter what people think. Thats the hard part. We

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[fratboydan]

did you tell her?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!

and just so you know, i did talk about you with my psychologist!

and i can't get you out of my head!

i miss you drumming on my buddha belly :(

[bchgrl315]

Yeah we talked about it Friday. I was pretty sure that she knew, but we just hadn't talked about it. Turns out her best friend back in Miami is Trans.

[aethowyn]

Things happen for a reason and I believe that everyone is unique because of that. You will always been looking for ways to improve yourself and I think that is all that matters hun. Just hug yourself and say, "I'm awesome and everyone knows it." I do that alot and I tend to laugh at how silly I sound. But it makes me laugh at least and it does help =]

Oh, thanks for the add! <3

[nc_cinegirl]

What's normal and who cares what anybody else thinks.When i told ya i was afraid to ask you to add me you said it's only live journal, it's not like? Well i don't really know you but i'm glad to have met ya on LJ,you should be proud of who you are and you've got a lot to look foward to and ya should be happy with yourself and proud of how far you've come!Being a little different is a good thing ;) You've got nothing to worry about!

[bchgrl315]

I know that I shouldn't care what other people think but I can't help it. I guess that I have always gotten my self esteem through other people and I know I can't do that. I need to change the way that I feel about myself. I just don't know how to make it happen.

I feel like everytime I get down on myself, even though it is always over the same stuff (i feel like a broken record), you always have something positive to say to me. Thank you so much.

[x_mass]

"I guess that I have always gotten my self esteem through other people and I know I can't do that

[x_mass]

your very welcome to delete this post if its inappropriate
you have just left a comment on another thread, where you stated that in time you will look back and wonder what all the fuss was about. And I hope truly for the individual concerned your experience is their experience. I posting this here because I thought it best not to hear my stuff on their thread. I recognise that your experience is true for the vast majority of young people, but it isn't always true. Some 17 years on its still a fight for me. Perhaps its because I became suicidal at six, and after many attempts beyond suicide at nine. Perhaps I was dumb an talked to a shrink at 6 or went loud at 12 to my parents (and met a wall of hate) I still cannot do what you seem to have done. I'm truly happy for you that its over for you, I have no idea if it will ever happen for me.

[bchgrl315]

When I was at the beginning stages of transitioning I had a friend that had transitioned that I talk to. I remember that one time when I was feeling so overwhelmed with all of the changes that I was going/had started to make and she told me that someday I would look back and wonder what all the fuss was about, and I think that I generally agree with that. Compared to how hard I had it built up in my head, it wasn't that bad.

Of course that is my opinion on it, and I doubt anyone would take what I think as fact. It is just my opinion. And of course it isn't always true.

I hope that you are able to become happy with your life. From this post you kinda sound like you hate me, but you aren't the only one who has tried to kill themselves. Don't mistake me thinking that the actual transition isn't that hard, for me thinking that life itself isn't that hard.

Erica

[x_mass]

why would I hate you? I barely know you
I may be jealous but that's and I'm not sure its even that
more the day to to day frustration with my own life

[bchgrl315]

well if you ever want to talk my aim is bchgrl315. I don't know your situation or if you are looking for insight from other people but I would be more than happy to chat if you ever wanted. I hope things get better for you soon.