He's leaving,

and its hurting.

I'm not used to people playing with my head. Games that go round and round. When its hard to find the beginning and even more tough to see the end. I'm clouded, and because of it I can't tell whats a lie or if there is any truth. I get the feeling that everyone else can see, like in a story, and everything is apparent. Apparent to everyone but me. ( Read more... )

I have drunkorexia.

Yes, it's a real thing. Its basically eating far too little (like anorexia) to either allow for alcohol calorie intake or because of financial circumstances (spending a higher percentage of money on getting drunk and a lesser percentage on food).

I fall into the latter of the two.

I think I should reevaluate this situation.

I just got burned. I really got burned. my brain wants to explode, but the show must go on. and on and on it shall go. and up and down I shall jump. and over and over again I will tumble. pause, refresh, smile. and walk on.

I say 'gross' to my life right now. school, work, people, stress.... gross.

I just wish I could speed it up and be done with school, valdosta, what ever it is that I am doing. I think I'm getting so fidgety that nothing will relax me.

I need change; I need a lot of it; and I need it now.

I am done. done for the day. done with the people. done with the bullshit. done beyond done and then done some more ( Read more... )

I feel as though the world hates me. everything that can go wrong will go wrong. my bike breaks, my ac breaks, i loose my debit card, my power disappears, everyone is gone and social everything is stressful. maybe this is just the aftermath of baking in my apartment for two weeks; maybe the world really does hate me. maybe i just need to have a ( Read more... )

So, I'm pretty sure that life is awesome right now ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm about to have a panic attack. This trip is suddenly looking a lot different than it was at first. I hope I'm wrong and I'm just feeling the lack of sleep, food and a mound of stress from getting my ducks in a row. Hopefully the Grand Canyon, the Great Basin, White Sands, Rattlesnake gorge and all those other nifty places will be ( Read more... )

I simply wish, that if there is a question to be asked they will ask the question. But sometimes things seam more complicated than they are.