lets talk again in ten days.

i totally just drove my sisters car by myself to get my eyebrows waxed. and i didnt even kill it once.

i leave in two days for austria. i think when i get to the airport im going to be very nervous. but itll be okay. im excited to finally be able to go to one of the two countries i swear ill go before i die. and believe it or not, ive practiced a little bit. hopefully this will be the trip that i finally find a name for my violin. shes been a ( Read more... )

its like im not in laramie and good things seem to be falling right into my lap lately.

i am not happy about any of this. and i feel like throwing up. but i love my cat.

its building. and i cant see. there is one person who looks at me like i matter...like im their everything. and i miss it. i feel like i should throw up. there is this shaking inside me. and i dont know how to handle it. i cant sit still. i want to...i cant breathe. its not like i need someone to put their arms around me until i stop. ( Read more... )

it was a beautiful night tonight.

i will not last there. i see myself getting worse and worse until everyone that use to know me will wonder what happened to the girl they really know. my eyes will become dull, and the circles will darken. i will get really thin. and pale. and scarred. and you wont recognize me. and it wont matter because you will have never thought about me ( Read more... )

this move is wearing me out. elise is driving me crazy...and i already want to pull my hair out because of her. and no job is keeping me from getting that second medication. goll, things are really falling into place around here.

i dont feel well. the only thing reminding me that this seems to be somewhat okay is this cat that sits on my lap and falls asleep next to me. im not sure what happened, but i was driving home, and couldnt see past that very second. life went on pause mode. and all i could think about was getting home to the one thing that makes me smile in ( Read more... )