"as far as being patient... I think I just see people for what they are and accept it and live with it... or go out of my way not to live with it or I don't want to bother at all. like once you come to expect certian negative traits out of people they tend to not annoy you as much or....something."

"so youre saying my expectations for humanity are ( Read more... )

ill keep this brief:
there are little life disappointments hiding in every crevice of every moment if you just keep looking for them. like dirt under your fingernails. lint between the keys of your keyboard. his/her/their fingerprints on YOUR doorknobs. ass dents in her unsheeted mattress. his cigarette butts in the ashtray outside next to your fern ( Read more... )

the hallmarks of serenity slip off my tongue like wet, sticky mango. the hairs of the organic fruit attack this papillae. how many words to describe the how many words im using to describe fruit? or am i describing serenity? ive forgotten to flag the ambiguity for clarification's sake out of complete and utter ambivalence.

exodus from relationships ( Read more... )

i am under the impression that over the past decade or so, creation of mainstream music has slowly dwindled into what can be considered, incessant, insipid, asinine dribble... what happened to music with psychological engagement? what happened to lyrics that didn't involve abusive parents and cheating bitch girlfriends? what happened to the women ( Read more... )

it's a joke, you know. don't act like it isn't because it is. i've broken enough hearts, enough to know when something will hurt. it's a joke, so let go. you're ultrasensitive condoms. you're ribbed. you're sheepskin. you're broken. you... you feel like a snowchain on a tire resting on asphalt in the summer- sticky but you wouldn't know. you feel ( Read more... )

my life is so boring. when i run a stop sign, i get chills. my life is that boring. my life is quieter than a stack of cards. quiet like this desperation for a little freedom. i said "fuck you" under my breath and it gave me a swell of confidence. this is how dull my life is. i think turning without clicking on my blinker is deathly rebellious. ( Read more... )

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     There are only patterns, patterns on top of patterns, patterns that affect other patterns. Patterns hidden by patterns. Patterns
within patterns.
     If you watch close, history does nothing but repeat itself.
     What we call chaos is just patterns we haven't recognized. What we call random is just patterns we can't decipher. What we
can't ( Read more... )

it's easy floating. for these forty-nine minutes and thirty-seven seconds, with my ear pressed up to the silver piece, ill forget.
what is your motive?
what is mine?

there's so much intent and insight after.
my life is a consequence.
i like to sum up an entire twenty-one years with statements. a statement. im still looking for the perfect one. ( Read more... )

her eyes remind me of a sunset from a lifetime before mine. there were species unnamed, and they lived life day to day without a thought of minivans, churches, and property taxes. ideas of geology, entomology and botanology had not even been formed: words, jargon, expression and confusion are futuristic myths of an unspawned nation of silver ( Read more... )