My mom says I'm not telling her anything anymore. But what does she want to know? How can I tell her how shitty I feel about myself? How I feel like I'm wrapped up in bullshit that I really wish I could just forget about. How it seems like I'm stuck in a cycle that I cannot get out of no matter how hard I try. But how hard am I really trying ( Read more... )

could have gone forever without having to see him again? did he really want to stop and talk to me? why did he give me a hug? why did he ask for another one when he said bye? he didn't even care, he looked at me, right at me, through me even, and it was like he didn't see anything. i don't know what i saw, but my eyes saw tears when he skated ( Read more... )

WTF!? I can't believe that last night happened, and it really sucks now because now it's all over. Now there is no more crush, no more excitement, no more hanging out, it's all over. Why did I let that happen? Why did he want that to happen when he is the one who just broke up with his girlfriend ( Read more... )

Things have just been crazy lately, almost in an un-explainable way. It's just that so much has been going on ( Read more... )

everything changes. just can't get over it all. had to get away tonight, couldn't be locked up in that room. thinking about him, why can't I just let it go? how do you know when you're really over someone? do you ever really get over someone? do those people see me? they are walking straight towards me, but they look away. why do people ( Read more... )

Got back to school on Friday night. Kind of a hectic night because someone had made a bomb threat in parking structure five, right outside of my dorm (figures) so I couldn't get into my room intil way late that evening. Oh well, at least no bombs went off or anything!! Scary though ( Read more... )

Ahhh, so good to be back, but it also was so good to be gone. :o ( Read more... )

Because last night was so crappy, I decided to just crash. Unfortunately, I couldn't sleep, (what else is new?) so I laid in bed and thought about stuff that I really didn't care to remember ( Read more... )

It's my first spring break in college ... a lot of my friends are on vacation, Cancun, Havasu, Cali, whatev, but not me, I'm back home in Washington. Thought that it would be fun to come home for a week and spend some "quality time" with the fam. Little did I know how little the quality would be. (haha ( Read more... )