There's this time of night that I don't think is specified by a literal time, but all of us have experienced it, it's that time of night in which everything is over.  You've done what you planned, came home, there is no where else to go, it's too late to think about doing anything else, you're pretty tired, really should just try to go to bed and ( Read more... )

The amount of energy I have is nill to none. I feel almost paralyzed, all I can think about is him, us, how everything was just a lie, that I was used this entire time, that I was just like every other girl he had ever been with, except the difference was that I thought that I was different. He told me about all of them, he told me how he was ( Read more... )

To sum it all up, "I can't believe it." I feel like I am living a life that is not really real, this must be a dream, a nightmare, this cannot be happening ... "I just can't believe it." All this time ... everything he said, everything he did, everytime he touched me, every time was a lie, all of it was just one big lie, a game he was playing ( Read more... )

Suddenly this morning I'm realizing that 6 AM did not exist for me during the past year at school, except for a few rare occasions when I was just getting home at 6 in the morning, but never did I once have to GET UP for something so early in the morning.  BUT I shouldn't be complaining because I finally got a job, THANK GOD; I was beginning to ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I wrote ... so here I am.  :)

I'm home now, back in good old Washington.  But what is home?  Sometimes I don't think that this feels like it.  Home is where the heart is, well I'm not sure where my heart is, I know my family is here and that makes it feel more like home than when I'm away in Arizona, but what about my friends ( Read more... )

there must be some correlation with people in college and lacking the ability to sleep ... what is that?!  I don't know, but if I did a study and figured out why it was so hard for college students to sleep and could find a way to help them (and me!!) I bet I could make a lot of money and more importantly I bet a lot of people would be a lot less ( Read more... )

There is so much in my head right now ... so much that I want say, to ask, to get out and leave behind, but I sit here and listen to the silence and don't know where to start. The is so still it is almost paralyzing me.

This weekend was crazy. Extremely, ultimately, insannnnely CRAZY. I am glad that is it over. I am glad that it is almost three in ( Read more... )

Sometimes I am sorry for the people in my life because I feel like I bring them down and cause them to have much more to deal with because of me, rather than being brought any sort of happiness, or positiveness from me, I feel that I bring a lot of pain, frustration, and hurt. And for that I am sorry ( Read more... )

seems like everyone talks so much about nothing. i have nothing left to say anymore. not that i ever had anything to say anyway ... or anything worth hearing ( Read more... )

Yesterday I felt so overwhelmed ( Read more... )