so i'm doing better. i still can't sleep worth a shit but i'm sure that'll adjust soon enough. i've decided that i'm going to sit down within the next few days and map out a 5 year plan in attempt to get my life in order. My main problem is that i want things done immediately and I'm trying to understand and accept the fact that it doesn't work ( Read more... )

something is seriously wrong with me right now. i'm in a spiral to complete and total depression. I can't sleep. I havent been to sleep before 5am for longer than i can remember. i am completely unhappy with life right now and i dont know how much longer i can pretend that things are okay. i cringe at the thought of being alone but there is no ( Read more... )

so it's day one of my quest to quit smoking. I'm feeling very easily annoyed and i have to say i'm a little bit violent. i need to find something to do to keep me occupied and active. apparently if i can get over the "3-day hump" i'll be fine. so we'll see. ahhhhh..

i dont know how many saturday nights in a row this is that i've been up this late completely awake. i'm at my moms because she doesnt feel well and is afraid she's going to die in her sleep and no one will be here to know. my brother is behind me asleep and he is snoring super loud and farting. the smell is horrible. i see a night sleeping on ( Read more... )

it's amazing, really. i just read through the journals of some random people who i don't know. want to know the one common factor? they all wrote their entries the same way, with some clever phrases or poetic lines, along with some sort of "artsy" photo that is supposed to have some meaning towards their entry, even though it could have been an ( Read more... )

in the past couple of months near about everyone i know has called me to cry, tell me their problems, brag about something that's happened to them. whether it's good news or bad news.. it's their news. they want me to give them answers, opinions, thoughts, comments. here is it people.. i have my own problems. does that come as a surprise? probably ( Read more... )

my resume is officially on the way. cross your fingers for me, please.

so i was lazy this weekend. I had a friend over for the entire thing but i did manage to finish, print, and seal my resume for a job on a cruise line. so let's all cross our fingers and hope that I'll be getting a fresh start soon. other than that, i have no real excitement to talk about.. so i'm going to end this now, with a picture.


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so it's 20 after 4 in the morning and i just finished writing a REALLY rough resume. now i just have to get my dad to look over it tomorrow and help me reword some stuff, make it sound more professional.. then i have to write a cover letter which should be just as fun, whoo hoo, then after i get my passport, i can fill out the application and send ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN!!!!!!!!! NINETEEN YEARS OLD WHOO HOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

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