Anymore i can't stand to think of what i might be doing if i would have gone down the beaten path. This whole blazing my own trail is harder than i thought it would be. It sucks being at that age of unsureity. My parents are happy for me and so is everyone else..but i'm not. Though it's like for once in my life things are working out, i'm picking ( Read more... )

today was fun. I had some bonding time with my father. First we shot some trap (thats where the clay pigion flies out and you shoot at it with a shotgun)for boy scouts. It was a good time, i didn't do so hot. I think i'm going to stick to drums to be honost. Then we went to cook's sporting goods to get some stuff for our bows. Since i'm going ( Read more... )

Man alive as much as i say i'm going to update this thing more often i sure don't. I need money..lots of money. If someone could just give me $1,000 a month with insurance too. I would probably be the happiest boy anyone would know. That would A. allow me to move out, B. pay for gas and food, C. allow me to stop being a tight ass with money, and D ( Read more... )

Damn i am fucking horrible at updating this thing. Here's a quick update! Kansas City was fucking amazing. I was sick for all of the way there, i thought i was going to die at one point, but once we got there and started to move around i felt better. heh We passed out at 6 pm and woke up at 7 am the next morning. Needless to say being in a car that ( Read more... )

Is harder when you don't know where to look. This whole sharing feelings thing is so fucking hard sometimes. I lived my life not sharing them. I compromised my feelings to make others happy. But now by doing so i only made things worse. I've been thinking deeper lately, mainly about myself and why i do things. I hate not knowing where i'm going in ( Read more... )

So i went and saw the get up kids this past saturday, they were amazing. But it led me to believe that i hate everyone that goes to those shows. show ettiquete should be taught at every show. Never EVER EVER EVER MOSH AT AN EMO SHOW!! i'm not going to explain that one ( Read more... )

So, i finally know what i'm going to do with my life, and it was decided by an internet quiz...

I sure haven't updated this thing in ever. Sometimes it's as if i forget i even have this thing. Well ladies and gents who read this, i have found myself at a critical point in my life to where i need to find myself. I'm not sure how to do it though, and i'm not sure that once i find myself what i shall do with it. It's ridiculous to think that me ( Read more... )

I'm finding myself inbetween stages of life all the time. It's like once you get comfortable in one stage you get thrown into another one and you have to adapt to it. It's weird working with all older people because we talk about this stuff. In a way i guess it's comforting talking to someone who has gone through a good portion of the stuff that i ( Read more... )

Humph kids, i'm not sure what is my problem at times. My heart feels like it's going to explode at times, i'm not sure from what. Maybe my chest is finally caving in, how awesome is that? Man kids, ya know how f-ing crazy it is to go throughout life knowing that you're affecting everyone's life no matter how my-nute it is. And how we affect those ( Read more... )