I'm noticing that things in my life revolving circles of progress and failure. Who am i? I know i'm Dustin but what is Dustin? There are so many paths in the woods that we call life. As of right now i'm standing at a fork. I'm looking down both and i'm not sure what i see. I'm so selfish, i borderline hate myself. I hate bringing others down with ( Read more... )

i think it's crazy how sometimes the happiest of years comes crashing with the fewest of sentances ( Read more... )

So i went to work today, but didn't actually go out and work. I took some powdered something that is supposedt to made me feel better. Lately everyday i haven't felt normal, i spent most of my sunday drinking. it was after 12 so it's socially acceptable. oh well, i'm goign to go to sleep now now.

I woke up today coughing up blood, isn't that quaint? Sometimes i wonder if one day i'm going to go to sleep and not wake up, my biggest fear is dying of something retarted. I could except cancer or a major diseas, but if i died from like choking on my own spit i would be one pissed off spirit. My manager James told me the other day that i'm one of ( Read more... )

Wow i've been 20 for 2 weeks now, and i swear nothing has changed, and in nothing i mean a lot of shit. IT's weird as much as birthdays don't mean shit, i'm finding that the older i get the less meaningful they get because of the responsibility that comes with the number. I'm not a teenager anymore, now i'm looked at for knowing all sorts of shit. ( Read more... )

I'm watching punisher as i type this, it's a solid movie in my opinion. I have the Alesis Ion, hot damn it's sweet. Jeannine's mom has been in the hospital for over a week now. I feel bad that there's nothing i can do to help jeannine or her mom. I feel bad that i get mad at her for being so stressed, but i don't say anything and just smile so she ( Read more... )

I haven't updated this thing in a while. I'm not that worried about it though. My life lately has consisted of sleeping, working, spending time with Jeannine, then sleeping and so on and so forth. The only exciting things coming up are that i am going to Dallas, Texas this weekend for work. I'm flying out there on friday for a seminar or something ( Read more... )

It's funny how you remember people for who they were. When i see kids i went to school with i don't recognize them. Like a few weeks ago i saw this kid Jeff Hudson while i was out merching and i barely recognized him, funny that i never really talked to the kid yet he recognized me. Now i look at myspace and other photo bareing sites with kids i ( Read more... )

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The subject should say it all to be honost. This new job is A Lot Of Work, but i kinda like it at the same time. I hate knowing that all of my friends are going off to parties and hanging all the fun, and i'm at home passed hope waiting for 6 o'clock to roll around just so i can do the same thing again the next morning. I hate routine. If this job ( Read more... )