i don't know what has me thinking about this.. maybe it's the fact that summer is coming and memories are rushing back to me, or the fact that i'm getting older & turning over a new leaf, or maybe it has something to do with that girl dying.... but i'm thinking about tanya right now. i rarely ever think about her anymore because it's been 2 years. ( Read more... )

so, i'm home alone all week and i'm enjoying it a lot so far. i've christened every room with a cigarette, left dishes in the sink, made messes without being yelled at and so on and so forth. wow ( Read more... )

NO ONE LOVES ME OR CARES ABOUT ME ANYMORE ( Read more... )

i'm seeing coheed & cambria on friday and i can't fucking wait. the excitement hasn't exactly kicked in yet but it will like. tomorrow. because i thought they would never come back to poughkeepsie but they are :D and i might be able to get backstage passes ( Read more... )

i really don't know what to do today. i've already been awake for 5 hours. i showered, dressed & got ready to go somewhere but there's nowhere to go. i really feel trapped. people keep questioning me about what happened to me and where i went and what i'm doing and here's the answer you're probably not looking for: i don't know. i'm really busy. i ( Read more... )

i have been doing a whole lot of nothing but laying around and working and spending money. which is normal for me. i'm really torn as to whether i should register for dutchess or .. what? i decided that i really WOULD like to live in north carolina, but only under a few circumstances. 1, being that i can bring all my friends w/ me. 2, i get to ( Read more... )

i miss the summer/fall.

i miss the time when i didn't know the truth.

i really stuck with my plan... of going to bed early everynight. i'm wide awake right now & i haven't yawned since 7:30 probably. fucking coffee & tea & excitement ruins my sleep ( Read more... )

i miss high school for 2 reasons.. i miss having a routine; wake up every morning at 5:30, go to school until 12:30, come home for an hour or 2, go to work until 10. repeat every day as necessary. now, i go to bed at ungodly hours, sleep all day & then go to work during the late afternoon. OR, i go to bed at ungodly hours, and wake up at 6 and DRAG ( Read more... )

let's backtrack a little ( Read more... )