fall is here as in real fall weather as in winter is coming sooner than you think and we all know that despite the glory of the holidays winter consists of dark months that have the unbelievable possibility of inducing depression and/or "off days"; the fact that everything between me and my friends can be mended with just a little love and effort, ( Read more... )

when everything that surrounds me is growing up sometimes all i want to do is grow down

i really wanna love everything and everyone so much right now! today was prrrobably the funniest thing ever between me and jim. i'm working on being happy with what i've got, or else i'll have my first regret ever once it's all gone. let's have fun asap, srsly.

there is one side of me that doesn't let the other side of me enjoy my feast. this is because i've kept that one side low of expectations so when any scrap is offered on my plate, it seems like a plate-full. yet there are times when that waiter comes to my table and places a steaming hot plate of filet-mignon (i hate filet mignon but you get the ( Read more... )

i figured that this entry was somewhat necessary as the last toast to this summer and a premonition of what is to come in this next year, this LAST year of high school. a myriad of thoughts anxiously swims in my brain and as much as i'd love to lift each thought out of the water with the sole effort of my pinky and toss, i must face confrontation.. ( Read more... )

there are no words to describe the conversation i just had. we are starting over. i love you so much, too.

i am biting my lip like nobody's business lately. friends..? i feel like my head will be screwed on right in a year when i move to (hopefully) chapel hill but until then everything will stay and my head will be knocked around and wobbly as usual. blaughahaughaughblughhh.

i've talked to you a total of three times in the last thirty two days. this literally hurts. becoming a sap over a boy is so not like me but all i can think of over and over again is that i can't wait to lay in bed with you the morning you get back.

with there being one week left until i come back home i've been planning out what exactly is going to happen once i touch foot on that sweet queen city ground once i unpack fucking everything and am not too jetlag. i will work on this with slush; friends, miami/adrian, breaking dawn midnight release, loving edward and bella, loving jim more after ( Read more... )

in my first week here i have done a lot. on the first day, aunt rosa taught me how to drive stick shift with her beetle. a few days ago, i roamed around the center of town where my grandma lives. i still haven´t been to her house since i´m staying with my aunt and uncle this time around. got my hair done, looked like that hot russian girl from that ( Read more... )