man, i've got a new record for getting my heart ripped out and stomped on by yet another guy. less than 24 hours! is it really this hard for me to find someone who makes me happy, who treats me right? i've been told that the guys just don't deserve someone like me... but it feels as if it's just everybody who cares about me telling me that to ( Read more... )

and so begins another year... already getting screwed over, blinding myself to reality. go figure. i've decided that it's best to just not let anybody in anymore. end of story.

maybe this year i might make my triumphant return to lj land... we'll just have to wait and see.

well hello there lj land... it's been on, forever. i rarely get on here anymore. i guess that i've just moved on to other realms (i.e. myspace, xanga, facebook) but why not update a bit ( Read more... )

so jacob got the job in oregon... that means that he's going to be gone for 12 weeks straight, basically the entire summer. it just hit me last night how much i'm gonna miss him. yeah sure, we're not together anymore but that's only because we knew that if he got the ministry job in oregon, it'd be too hard. he's excited and i'm excited for him ( Read more... )

yes livejournal land, jen is still alive. even though right now it doesn't feel like it. i blame organic chemistry!! while all of my friends have given up and accepted the fact that they're going to fail, i'm helplessly making the attempt to teach myself 2 chapters of symbols, reagents, mechanisms, and syntheses. it's going to be a very long ( Read more... )

this should be an interesting/awesome weekend... we're heading to chicago for the D-III playoff games. it's really hard to believe that i'd ever see my school in the football playoffs, especially coming from monroe. but hey, the mount went 10-0. major change from home. i'm so excited ( Read more... )

just wanted to let ya know that i'm doin much better than the last time that i'd updated this... earlier this week i was pushed to the point of wanting to leave everything here, but people told me that i couldn't quit, that i had to stick through everything. so here i am now, perfectly content with my life at the mount. i realized that what i ( Read more... )

i know that i haven't updated this in forever, but i haven't really had the need. now i do. i can't stand this anymore. i can talk to everybody here, but i can never get out how i really feel about everything. so here i am, right now sitting here venting when i really should be in bed. oh well... here i go ( Read more... )

life at the mount's been awesome, cept for all of the homework. it seems as if i've had so much work this semester, even though i'm only taking 16 credit hours. i got a job as a lab tech for the bio dept. it's easy work, so i can't complain ( Read more... )

man, i really hate days like this. all i've been doing is thinking... about everything. life here, life back at the mount, my major, the future (both immediate and long-term), and so much else. it doesn't help that for some strange reason, my body chooses now, when i'm about to have one of the most stressful weeks that i've had in a very long ( Read more... )