what exactly am i doing?

[beautifulthings]

 UGHHH

I'm trying to write the lyrics for this song and it is really not working out. It was so clear last week and now there's nothing. I'm so frustrated.

Jordan is home now. He got here on Sunday. And yesterday he woke up with the flu and had been miserable most of the time. I try to take care of him but now I just don't know what to do. Yesterday

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[imwithstupid]

i think most of the thing about passions is that you lose them for a long time and then once you come back to them you know it's your passion. like i still think photography is one of my passions but i haven't done it creatively in years. so is poetry. i remember hearing that the hardest part about photography is leaving the house to go take the pictures. it's really like that... starting and keeping up the activity is the hardest part. right now i'm a workaholic and when i get home i just sit on the couch and watch tv. there is nothing creative in my life anymore.

[beautifulthings]

and then you see people who are so much better at it than you and it's like... why do i even bother?

i feel like i'm trying to force it. i feel like i have to force everything in order for me to accomplish anything? why can't i just do things naturally? i have zero motivation to do anything and then complain about being bored.

[imwithstupid]

yeah i guess that's universal. i'm the same way.